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What does it mean to have honor? Is it in your deeds? Is it something your heart already knows? Is it the emotions you feel? No...honor is pain, to have honor, you must learn to be kind, to help others in need, and to give up something in order for someone else to know happiness.

Sacrifice...is an ever greater pain, knowing you've made someone else happy, by giving up something you cherished so much. It feels like a knife to the heart, and anyone who knows this also knows you can't help but cry.

There was a woman I have been friends with for a long time, and today I had to give up that relationship, because of my own stupid mistake. I had no choice...and as much as it pains me to have ended the friendship...it had to be done. Yes, I'm crying, but only because its all I know...I know only sacrifice and pain, I know no happiness but the happiness of others. I give and keep none for myself, all because of what I am. A protector, an underling, a weilder of will, who's strength is unsurpassed.

In the end, I will die...and my heart will go with someone else. Not that it matters, sacrifice is all I know.