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Paladin. The name I take to become noble. Nobility which is nothing. I am nothing. I am a fool. From the beginning it feels as though my path was the path of the forgotten. Of the sad. As I continue onward with this journey of mine, I only see clearer that my path is the pathh of grief. I am nothing. I am worthless and I am stupid. There is nothing for me. Nothing to make me stronger. Nobody to care for me and nobody to care for. My back turns to everyone, so everyone turns their back to me. I am alone. This path of sadness is mine alone. I have only my misery, the Zarroc that follows me like a clinging shadow. I am not the noble knight I wish I was. I am nothing. I do not deserve a name, a title. Nobody loves me and nobody wants me. I am a dreamer, doomed to die alone. Doomed to die unloved. For there is nobody who will accept me, and those who do have been pushed aside. Foolish. I am nothing. Worth nothing and I will amount to nothing. I no longer know what to feel. My happiness matters to nobody. I wish I was special, but I know in my heart that I am not. I am unimportant and useless, and I will neveramount to anything. Nobody will ever be proud of me. I can never make anyone happy. I am nothing. I am nothing. I am nobody important and nobody to love. I want to die. I want to die so I won't have to cry anymore. Because nobody will listen and nobody ever understands. I fear what the future holds for me. I want only to love, but I feel that my feelings aren't returned. I don't want to be a burden and yet you make me feel like I am. Like I'm nothing. I am nothing. I love you, yet I feel like you don't love me. So often this feeling comes, I don't know what to think. I love you. I swear I do. Do you love me? You say you do, you return to me after our greatest fight, yet I am still confused. And my dear friend... I am lost to you now. Have I become nothing to you as well? Because of my fools attitude toward you, are you willing to forget me? I'm sorry for all that I've done. I'm nothing. Forget me.
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