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So I just got a phone call from my parents. My grandmother died today. In a way, I wish my response could be more emotional than it is. I have this detachment in regards to death, probably because no-one close to me has died before.

Actually, the more I think about it, the deeper the impact is getting; like it's slowly drilling its way into me. I think I feel guilty for not feeling really sad about it.

In any case, I know why it isn't affecting me the way one would expect; I haven't seen much of her for a while, even before going to university. Thing is, at least when she was alive I had the option of going to see her, but now... I dunno, maybe it'll start to get to me more over time... Right now I'm waiting on news about the funeral. My parents found a sort of will that says she didn't want a service, but I get the feeling my dad wants one. In which case he may well want me to come home early to attend it.

More on this as it develops...