I had a bad dream. I was crying. I wrote the full entry. I deleted/edited it becuase it was typed, but doesn't need to be said becuase it's just an emo moment based on past stuff. The only point I will make is that it's really hard for me to run to someone and be able to talk to them when I need someone to talk to, or a shoulder to cry on. I had this in the past and lost it. I don't mean a partner either becuase I literally don't worry about ever having one anymore. I lost interest in it. I just mean a really close friend. I don't have that in the sense of what I used to. I miss Zandra tonight. Though Ktzeion is probably one of my closest friends (if not, my closest, which i feel a little sad about because that also means he's probably my only one), I don't feel like I could have that type of relationship with him that I had with Zandra in the past. Everyone is different. Ktzeion is good for me as him, so never change (again). I just wish me and Zandra hadn't changed, because I need the old her too... and alot of the time don't realize it.
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