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*sigh* I'm worried about someone right now, don't know why. Its just this sudden feeling.

I feel like writing a story, don't know how long it will be. Though I'm debating on if I should make it in a story style or script style.

I can't stop writing. It makes me feel like I've done something...I need to vent, and make my feelings known. Its not like it really matters, but still...it helps.

Taking things one day at a time hurts. I want to press the fast forward button for June 15th and get my life over with. It just has to happen, graduation will set me free. I feel so young in highschool, when I'm going to be turning 19 in a few months. I wonder if I'll get a card. Probably not.

I want to be in love again. Eventhough it sent me through hell and back. I want someone to love me, and to treat me right. Someone to take away my fears of being used. But its funny...I still want to hang on. Maybe there is hope, and what if that day comes and I am not there? But I don't want to be single for most likely the rest of my life.

I keep listening to Yakusoku. Its a pretty song, yet it depresses me. Promises...you know, they can always be broken, and they always are.

Eh, theres just too much going on. All the guys I see are too good for me. Everyone is oddly enough. =/ I'm not attractive anymore. Only a complete makeover can save me.

*shrug*

I just need to save for that day.

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