My life is just one great fat fantasy that rolls on and on and on. I can see that now. An insane fantasy of dreams and wishes that will never come true. But it all falls away in the end. It all dies.
But its just sad. These dreams of mine, I'm foolish enough to believe even the tiniest hopes, even the tiniest possibilities. Dreams are just that; foolish thoughts. Foolish, foolish, foolish.
Maybe I'm not destined for anyone. Though it makes me wish I was. Makes me wish I had someone to care for with all my heart, and know I was cared for in return.
But all those that I have loved don't want me. You had no time for me. And you have someone else.
I really am beginning to believe that the pain I feel is driving me to insanity. With each moment of reality, it gets harder and harder to breathe, and my chest aches more than ever.
Maybe it will kill me eventually. I don't know...
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Contemplations of a knight
So often lost in quiet contemplations, viewing the world through wolven eyes... This is stuff. Just stuff. Stuff fueled by video games, boerdom and hotdogs. Its my personal fanfic/drawing/poetry log now. Like what you see? Leave a comment!~ :3
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