You cant make me stay
No matter what you do
No matter what you say
I’m going to leave anyway
Who do you think you are?
Restraining me here
Let me go, let me go
I don’t know why you care so much
Cause you never did before
You never knew that I was there
But now that I'm leaving I you start to see
That I’m real not just imaginary
With all the things you never said
You kept pushing me away, over the edge
Now that I’m leaving
You want me to stay
For what purpose? I ask
So you can ignore me some more
I don’t think so, its not going to end that way
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EYES
Alwase watching
Alwase prying
into my life
they are lurking
they are hiding
so they wont be seen
i know
i can tell
they are still there
why are they watching
why wont they leave
they dont say a thing
they just keep watching
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get out of my head
just stay away
if all u do is bring me pain
then i dont want u around
stop telling me what to do
stop trying to change my mind
u know u were never going to win
stop pulling me back
from were i want to go
from who i want to be
i dont want u around
so just leave me be
i dont care who u know
i dont care if u love me
its just words, useless word
they mean nothing to me anymore
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I Miss You
im sitting here
thinking of you
wondering when
i will see you again
i remember when were togeather
you hold me close
you make me feel safe and whole
i miss that felling when you leave
i miss the way you hold me
the way we kiss and talk
im wanting you to be here with me
i know all i can do is sit and wait
till you can, i just wanted you to know
I Miss You
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Dark to Light
i was left in the dark
all on my own with no one around
there was no light to see by
i was alone, broken and afraid
i saw you in the darkness
you shone like an angel
at first i didnt know what to do
to run away or towards you
i was hesatent so you came to me
we talked, the shadowed and the light
your light touched my black heart
i was filled with your light
you brought me out
of that shadowy dungon
i will never go back
with you around
you are my light
lets keep it that way
i was left in the dark
all on my own with no one around
there was no light to see by
i was alone, broken and afraid
i saw you in the darkness
you shone like an angel
at first i didnt know what to do
to run away or towards you
i was hesatent so you came to me
we talked, the shadowed and the light
your light touched my black heart
i was filled with your light
you brought me out
of that shadowy dungon
i will never go back
with you around
you are my light
lets keep it that way
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I want to kill
let the rage out
let people know
i wont take it anymore
im filled with anger
that people say im no good
I want to say im evil
I want them to suffer
just like they made me
though all these years
so they can see
what they did to me
I want to die
let the suffer and anger go
not having to deal anymore
this life hurts with every breath
so ill just stop
and let my spirit go
for the pain will
never leave me alone
and the suffering will continue
until i die so
I want to stop breathing
I want my heart to stop beating
I want
I want
to let go
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im sitting here waiting
for u to come take me away
from this dark evil place
im sitting here waiting
in the darkness of my heart
were are you?
im sitting here waiting
scared out of my skin
when will you come?
im sitting here
alone and cold
waiting, waiting for you.
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the warmth of the day
wont ever faid away
for when you hold me close
night seems to stand still
though we watch the sun sink
behing the building, turning the sky pink
night shall not advance
for in our embrace
time, night, and space
stand still
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i dont know why you like me
but i dont really care
for when im with you
all my feelings i can share
no one knows the real me
but no one really wanted to
till you came around
and asked me to show you
i thought i was done with love
all it was,was agony and ache
you sat next to me and smiled
i felt my heart give a great yank
now that we are togeather
people trying to tear us apart
they will never succed
cause we are conected at the heart
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Take away my feelings
take away the pain
make me not hurt anymore
make them stay away
there nothing but troublr
Danger, is what they are
to me and every one else
i started to dout what i have
then slowly break away
isolsting myself in the cold of the day
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you go to fast
you walt to slow
will you tell me the things i want to know?
probibly not, my febal hopes
faid away with the sun
i dont know what can be done
if you wont talk
if you cant see
what this secresy is doing to me
then ill leave
for eternety
so the cuts will close, you see
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you dont like things i do
but you wont tell me what they are
i sit here, wondering in dout
thinking is this ment to be
or is it a fling that i cant see
you ask me whats wrong
but dont answer in return
youd rather me not find out
confiding in my best friends, you do
she wont tell me and neither will you
what am i supose to do then? just die?
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i know your hurt but so am i
its not like we can cast them to the sky
i show you my probums, you hide yours away
in another who i trust just the same
you want to hang out, i want to be alone
maby were to diffrent, and should walk alone
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the voices in my head
make my life a living hell
they tempt me to do things
that will hurt everyone
they ovre power my thoughts
so all i can think is
to hurt
to kill
to destroy
the voices wont go away
no matter how hard i try
i cant make dissisions
without them
pounding the negitive in
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i think there for i am
i think im alone
i am alone
i think i am lonly
i am
i think there is no light
theres not
i think no one cares
no one does
i think im invisable
i am
i think i would like to die
i am
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the darkness hides away
in my sill shatered heart
not knowing what to do
how to heal what was broken apert
the darkness puts thoughts in my head
thoughts that are deep and confusing
the thoughts hurt
they shatter my heart further
i begin to dote all that i am
all that i have, all that i will be
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Rina is my other face
the one i dont let out
she is strong but so am i
i fight her from lashing out
with every breath i take
sometimes i cant hold it in
i just let her wonder free
she is my sadness, heart ache, pain and hate
i spend weeks cleaning up after her
hoping that my life wil be the same
it never is and it never will be
because shes alwase there
lurking trying to find a way out
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the things that people say
are very hurtful to me
but what is worse is what they dont say
because i dont know what they think or what they feel
some say im moving way to fast
others say i donr deserve this
people say there happy for me
others say im a b***h
i know im not suppose to care
about what they think or say
but these are my friends
or i thought they were any way
now im left alone
to wonder how i feel
if i am to get through this
or just to faid away
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i dont know what im doing here
i dont know what im suppose to see
i dont know why im filled with fear
i dont know who im suppose to be
i dont know if i will make it through the day
i dont know if im just lying to myself
i dont know what to say
i dont know if im sitting on a shelf
i dont know how to live life
i dont know what to surround
i dont know what to do in strife
all i do know is i feel right when you are around
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my world is caving down
but theres not a sound
from the bees
to the birds
from the trees
to the words
that you speek
my world is so bleak
when will you change it
when you come back in a bit
or never again
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the thoughts in my head
will never fade away
as im sitting here
thinking of you
the thoughts that hurt
the thoughts that make me cry
but the ones with youalwase make me smile
come and sit with mefor awile
thinking of you makesme sad
makes me smile
makes me go insane
just thinking of you
the way your life use to be
before you left me and the world
why did you have to die so suddenly
did you do it on purpose
or was it just an acident
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What is Love?
love is a felling deep inside
which makes your heart float to the sky
love makes you do crazy things
happiness and cherrful to you love brings
your heart first tingels and then it acks
but when rejected it will break
love is diffrent to everyone
but to me it will become
the ack in my heart the glitter in my eye
my heart beats franticly as he walks by
this is love to me but he does not know
he will never know how i love, love him so
