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I went and picked Curtis up and we went to the Dunkin Donuts around the corner. He brought his drawing pad and i brought my clipboard, paper, and pencil. I created a picture of a zombie hand reaching for a coffee cup that was on the table and a dead fish next to the cup. He drew a pretty demonic looking skull. A creepy homeless guy came in and sat at the table next to me, which bothered me. No matter, we all soon got kicked out when it turned 12 so me and Curtis decided to go to Crosbey Park. On the way there we were stopped at a stop light and i pointed out the in the building next to us there were flashing lights like there was some kinda party but with no one in it. He told me it was probably a fire alarm, but i thought it looked like a strobe light. As we drove off a cop car drove towards the building. I figured he was right.

At the park we just kinda walked around it and fooled around. Then we finally got to the swings. Swings are my favorite part of parks. But after awhile on these swings I got sick feeling and this lasted for a while even when we left the park. My friend Ben Bernier called me. He said he was locked out of his house and that we should go hangout in his backyard. He has a pool and a hot tub and all that good stuff. On the way there we passed the same building and it was surrounded with firetrucks and police cars. At Ben's house we went into the hot tub. It was really chill, and that's the best way to hangout. Ben asked if i wanted to smoke and i told him that it always makes my heart throb and that I was just going to get really hungry and that i don't have any money to buy food (which I don't) He told me that he would buy me Adrian's. [Adrian's is a diner that opens at 11pm and closes around 5am, drunk people go there all of the time.] So i told him i would take one hit then that would be enough. So i did. And i did get hungry so we got out of the hot tub. We drove past Adrian's and surprisingly it was closed so Price Chopper was our next bet. There there were some guys that Curtis knew. I grabbed this apple fritter out of the bakery and started to eat it as we walked around the store. I finished it and we didn't end up paying for it. I found this perfect sized bag of Smartfood popcorn. Curtis and Ben found some food too. At the checkout some of Curtis's friends were there. They looked pretty nerdy, it surprised me. But they were cool. There was this one guy with long hair back in a ponytail and glasses. I don't remember his name because I don't think he told me. He seemed really cute to me and pretty smart. I don't know why i find these people so attractive. Well geeky kids that is.

I dropped Ben off at his house and then Curtis off at his. I was on my way home when Ben called me. He asked if i wanted to hangout at his backyard again because he was still locked out. I told him i would just stop home and get my bathing suit then come back. In my head i though that maybe he only wanted me to come over so he could possibly hook up with me but i just disregarded the thought. At his house we hopped into the tub. It was really comfortable, especially because it was so cold out. It was about 3:30 in the morning. We chatted for a little bit then just laid there in silence enjoying. I told him i could fall asleep, then he asked me if i wanted a back massage. I wasn't about to pass up that offer. Though many people aren't really good at giving me them i thought i would give it a try. He was really really good at it I was practically in a trance. His face was really close to my neck and i could hear his breathing. I could tell he wanted to kiss me. Then he asked if i would get offended if he kissed my neck. I told him no and asked him why i would get offended. I really didn't see any harm in it. He did, almost immediately. I was still in mid sentence. Then he turned my face and kissed me. This went on for a bit and he eventually pulled me on top of him. Overall he was a good kisser, but he just had a different style. I told him that he was just going to get mad at himself because it wasn't going to go anywhere, whilst he was smooching on my neck. He said he didn't expect it to lead to sex and that reassured me. It seemed really casual to me. It didn't really seem like it was a big deal we were smooching in his hot tub and that we wouldn't think anything of it the next day, which i don't think we're going to. He started biting my neck and i told him no hickies, that certain people wouldn't like seeing that. Told me that he wasn't and who were these people. I told him my dad, Katie, my step mother, and Dennis. I reminded him that we were "Involved" as Dennis liked to say. This is how i knew it wasn't a big deal to Ben because he didn't mind talking about Dennis. I told him we haven't hung out in like a week and that he wasn't exactly acting like we had anything going on. Also that last time when Dennis said we were going out he was messed up on a couple drugs and denied it to Bill the next day. Ben tried to keep me in the hot tub when i had to go. It worked for about 20 minutes then i eventually dragged myself out. I got my towel and dried off. Ben walked me to the back of his yard where my car was on the other street. We said our good-byes and that I would call him later. When i got home it was about 5am and i just passed out on my bed.

It's so hot out this morning. I'm defiantly going over someone's house today to go swimming. And possibly go out on the quad.