Alright, heres the thing. I was supposed to go get a shot done at 11:15 but I accidentally forgot so I rescheduled it for 1:30. I was talking to Dennis about what I was going to do today. I was going to wait until Ben got out of work and go over his house to go swimming and was going to see if Dennis wanted to go but he was thinking more about going to the quarry. He invited me to go with him, so i was pumped. Mostly because I haven't hung out with Dennis is awhile. So I got all spiffed up in green and pink and even painted my nails. I told him i was going to leave soon for my shot and he told me he wanted to leave by 2. I told him i wouldn't take that long but he said he didn't want to leave late. Katie had taken my car for work and Carrie was gone so i had to call her so she would come get my and bring me there. She said she would be on her way. I sat and waited. Dennis wouldn't leave me alone about the time. I told him i was sorry and that there was nothing i could do about it. I told him to just go without me if it was a big deal and he said he didn't want to. I thought up an idea that he could just pick me up from the doctors office because it was on the way. So i grabbed a towel and my stuff and ran out to the car. Carrie was walking out of it. She asked me why i had all my stuff and i told her that Dennis was going to pick me up from the doctors. She told me that she had to feed Mitchell and that i was going to have to take her car. In addition I had to pick up milk and two prescriptions. I had told her i would earlier but i didn't think i was going to be in a rush. I told her i didn't want to do it but she said that we needed milk. I was getting really pissed off at this point. I just wanted to go out and have fun with the one kid that i can never get a hold of. SO i started to drive away when Carrie called telling me that i locked her out. So i had to turn around and give her my house keys. Then when I went to get my shot they had this new policy where i had to wait there for 15 minutes after i got the shot. If i didn't have to wait there everything would've been fine. I so i waited very impatiently. The i finally got to leave so i ran out and sped to the store. I went into CVS and raced to beat all the old people to the counter, which i did. There i asked for the two prescriptions. One of them was ready the other was being made. So i had to wait there. I should have ran out and got the milk but i didn't want it to be done once i walked out of the door. When it was finished i ran out next door to Price Chopper to find some milk. My phone ran and it was Dennis. He asked were i was and i told him. He told me he was at the other side of town and couldn't afford to waste anymore time. So he left without me. He told me he would call me later tonight to go see a movie or something but i know he's not going to. He always says he going to call me and then he doesn't. I was really upset that he just gave up on me like that so when he said he would call me later i didn't say anything until he said goodbye. I just had been running around trying as hard as i could to rush things for nothing. I tried not to cry i the store though i could feel the tears trying to push through. I bought the milk and headed home. I don't know why i get so upset sometimes but i cried on the car ride home. There i went inside and flopped on my bed. Carrie asked if i had did everything she asked me to and if i was going to leave son for the quarry. I told her no and that they left because i was too late from doing her chores. She didn't give a s**t, as long as she got what she wanted. I told Katie about what happened. She told me i shouldn't be so mad. It pisses me off how i can't talk to her about anything anymore without her contradicting me. I told her i was mostly angry because i never get to see Dennis. She told me he wasn't worth it if he's not going to put time aside. Well we're not going out so i don't expect him to. I don't care what she says. I really like Dennis. I don't think I'm going try and talk to her anymore. I took my book and walked out to the living room where it was empty. I just sat there on the couch and let the tears practically stream down my face. Then i fell asleep. When i woke up i felt like i was still asleep. I felt kinda drunk. I got up and walked to my room and fell asleep on my bed. I slept there until about 4:30 then made myself an ice cream cone and watch Zaboomafo.
I really hope he does call me. He owes it to me.
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