I don't like you...
[Music: This House: Edison Glass]
[Mode: *sticks tounge out*]
MMM.
So things are going pretty hectic right now.
I have an inner struggle that I'm afraid to let out.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
I've let my mama down so many times.
I feel horrible.
I hate the feeling when you are doing something right,
But it's wrong to other people.
But when you do their right,
It's still wrong.
And you know it's wrong.
But you have to do it to make them happy.
It sucks.
Ahhhh
I have never stressed so much in my life!
I miss it!
I use to be so kick back!
I had no worries!
I think all this stress gets to me.
I eat more! LOL
I gained wait.
Because, food never lets me down.
I love food.
It makes my tummy happy.
So it makes me happy.
So I eat more!
OH food.
It has betrayed me to by giving me extra pounds.
Not that bad though.
LOL
I mean I can lose it all.
AHH *DETERMINED*
At one point I wanted to run away from it all.
I just couldn't hold it in.
Gahhhh i'm so embarrased by that.
Ahahaha it's funny, I feel so lonley.
Ahahahahahahahaha
oh man. Beep beep.
But on the good note.
Things are going good at my job site.
I feel like I'm in now.
Like I know what im doing.
Yesterday I embarrased myself.
I could understand what the Vet wanted.
And..I made myself looked stupid.
Ahahahahaha, so I went to the back
to hide my face because I turn really red.
One time, The Doc asked me to get the
temperature form the dog.
I was all excited because I though I knew how to do it.
But...I messed up.
The other guys were like it's okie,
I did the same thing.
You know why they were saying that?
Because my face turned bright red, I wasn't even that
embarrased, but i could feel my face get hot.
Ahahahaha, i'm such a nerd.
But yeah, I like working there.
I know this is somethign I want to do.
I love animals.
I want to save them.
For other people.
So they can be happy!
C:
*sigh*
Thats it!
Laters!
I love you C:
wah. Your words. Touched me.
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lol! Don't worry about it, that's always
how it is when you start out, but then
you're pro after like a month or two.
You'll get the hang of it, don't feel
stupid or embarrassed, they weren't
pro when they started out and that's
why they understand as well.
As for the stress, I really don't like
that Johnny character. I feel like he just
adds more unnecessary stress to yourself.
You really shouldn't let him..
You and I are the type of people that
will let others do whatever they want
with us, we let ourselves get talked into
doing things we don't enjoy doing, but
we do it to please other people. It shouldn't
be like that if we are getting hurt in the process
though, and that is why I stopped.
My friends think i've kinda become a jerk,
but I rather be thought of as a jerk
then let myself get taken advantage of
by everyone that comes my way.
Don't let Johnny get to you Huwee, you
need to set some boundaries, it's alright
if you do, when you don't things just keep
happening and never change, you expect them
to, but they never do unless you promote
the change to take place.
If he doesn't like it then he should go make
someone else feel miserable.
I know everyone has their goods and their bads
and loving them for both is what makes them
them, but, ask yourself this, do you find
yourself feeling unhappy most of the time
when it comes to your relationship? Or happy?