heart 
heart I had him
all to myself...four whole weeks...
four weeks of complete and uncontrollable...happiness
not even the school in the middle of the day would bring me down
but something came up...
i understood
he'd have to leave early...two weeks instead
so what if he was missing my birthday...
i missed his... and i still had him for two weeks...
two...school interrupted weeks...
Two weeks of coming home to anthony
two weeks...of pure joy... less than four...but soooo worth it
But something's come up....
now we're down to one....One week of suffering
through school...so i can come home to him...
cling to him till my parents kick him out....and cry myself to sleep...
one week of pure joy...5-6 hours a day... and one
destructive day...of completely numbness...
as i wish him farewell... knowing i wont see him
again for the longest time...knowing...i have to live
without him again...without his touch...without his embrace
no hand to hold, no arms to enfold...no sweet kisses...
nothing for a very long time....
one week....and i have to be in school all week...
one week...and he's leaving on a friday....
one week...and there's no time for long goodbyes...
one week...he's mine...
but with such a small amount of time together...
is the joy going to over come the pain?
please...someone tell me...because i just....
I just want to be with him....why's love got to hurt...
why's it got to smack me in the face every time i start
to get happy again... god...I LOVE HIM! why doesnt the
world...just let that happen...I just want to know....
I don't understand....
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CyanidexLust · Fri Feb 22, 2008 @ 08:35am · 0 Comments
