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Pain

As I sit here in the dark...
All I can feel is pain...
I have nothing else left...
The only thing I see is my death...
As I site here in the dark...
All I have is my hurt....
Now days all i want...
Is for my pain to end...
As I sit here in the dark...
Wishing my pain was gone...
Hoping the last of me would go numb...
I just sit back and look for the end...
As I sit here in the dark...
Hopping my life would end...
Thinking of all my past sins...
I know where I'll be going...
As I site here in the dark...
Knowing where I'll burn...
No worse it could be...
It must be better than the life I lead...
As I sit here in the dark...
Just looking for a way to get away from my pain...
My life I must end...
A new hell I must begin...
As I site here in the dark...

Memories

Anguish and torment raise anew,
a forgotten lore I ever knew
glistening pinchbeck of the night,
and this lancet shows me a new height.

In pools of selfish gore I lay,
sullen memories fade away
a dying breath graces my lip,
As from the glass of death I sip.

WHY?

Why did you leave me here to die,
bleeding from my heart and my soul
crying till I was blue in the face
I never thought you'd go
How much you told me you loved me
How much you told me you cared
Yet you could brake my heart and
leave me in all this despair
Now I shall never know
why you left me here to die!

Suicide

I don't know why I did it, I was just fooling around. I never knew life was
so precious, until I hit the ground.
I was mad, I remember I got a knife, I slit my wrists which took my life.
The blood kept flowing, it wouldn't stop, my hair and my clothes were like a mop.
It was the worst kind of feeling, when I made myself die, all I could do was
lie there, I couldn't even cry.
I tried it before, although not the same way. I had an overdose, at least
that's what they say.
I told no one, I kept it all inside, when I was confronted I sat there and
lied. I never should have done it as you can tell, because I committed
suicide, I shall burn in hell!