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love and happiness all around
I am feeling like such a clown
crying inside my head
sometimes wishing that I am dead
when I try
to tell you what's inside
I get scared
I run and hide
how could you understand
that all I see is your hands
hoping that you'd pull me up
out of all this hazinous
but when you try to hear my words
all I do is close the doors
I wish I could show you how I feel
but that wish is unreal
hoping that you'll be around
so I won't be a clown
completely spacing~out
I need someone to pull me out
love and happiness all around
and all I want to do is drown
crawling deep inside my head
sometimes wishing that I am dead