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Nothing can tear us apart

I would say the greatest thing that could come into my life,has ascended from the skie.Ive never had this feeling before,I completly trust this beautiful stranger,we have literally spent hours a day talking to each other.There is so much love to pour into each other it's quite over whelming.The other day I was talking to Panda and I couldn't help but burst into tears...ofcourse im not going to tell him that I was crying.But,when there's a point that so much happiness is overflowing inside of you what more can you do?I find myself sometimes feeling helpless to him,my words seem not enough.I could write him a poem like I have done with so many other guys,with my feelings intact but he get's a whole story.<3 At first when I met his ex girlfriend I felt like I was the bad guy for talking to her ex after just recently he left her...for reasons I will not say.She was a sweetheart,but I suppose it reems through every females mind when they meet the other female,"Am I better?What happened?I hope im not doing what she has done." simple questions like that reeled through my mind,and for a second I had to sit back and take it all in,(this is in no means a form of trying to insult his ex,she is a great girl)that's when I realized if I was the same...he wouldn't go out with me would he?So I felt a bit confident after that, but still ashamed of myself for knowing she was in pain.Eventually,she left and Panda sat back and hrld me in his arms and I thought,"Could this get any better?"his friends are amazing wonderful colorful people.I can honestly say,if someone dropped a boulder on my head,right now, I wouldn't feel it.There's something so amazing about Panda, he even gets along with my exes <3 there great guys just weren't Panda lol.Ill finish up this chapter by saying simply this,There are tough times and good times in a realationship,but the love will always exsist.<3