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...I wonder what else I have to lose that I haven't lost already. I am truly alone this time, no wife, no kids, no friends, no guild, its almost as if my stay here was worth nothing at all. Sure I've had my moments where I was a "hero" but I guess that after everything that has happened, my life has just hit rock bottom.

Yes there are people I want to hurt, maybe even kill...but what good would it do? Since I've returned all I've gotten was grief from everyone I've ever known...if thats how it has to be...fine...I don't need them...I don't need anyone. I left the guild because of what I learned in my sleep...the truth about the existance of my kind. The Divine Line were created with the sole purpose of ruling over their people for a time then dying, and were later re-incarnated. I'm the 28th incarnation birthed from my mother's womb, not created like the rest of them. I was thought of as different no matter where I went and was hated by some, something I've had to deal with all my life even escaping the grip of assassins. Then something I could've prevented from happening, happened. A war broke out among my people, though I've fought many battles in that war, I escaped into exile here. Thats where it all began.

Its been 3 years, and I've went from having it all to having nothing at all. I'm fine with it though since no one understands the pain I've gone through throughout the past 8 months. Finding your family dead in your own home, then learning your fate is sealed with a divine crest, that would be enough to drive anyone insane, something no one will ever understand, or know, because I'm on my own...and this time I'm fulfilling my mission.