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	TrigunCat4's Journal This journals about all the stuff I incounter and also my place to write updates in my life . I love anime, manga & movies. This will preriodicly apear in my journal. I also will write about what ever comes to the top of my head, it may be jibberi

	Procrastination is not my middle name, it’s my full name!!!


Hi! It’s been a while since I’ve updated! With the last journal I wrote, I had planned to write a follow up journal, but like all of my projects, it got put on the back burner. Why? Because I’m a terribly diligent procrastinator! Like all procrastinators, I have good intention of accomplishing my plans and duties, but somehow never manage to. I know all I have to do is be responsible and discipline, and just do it, BUT noooo I can’t do that! For the most part I think of myself as a hard worker, but for the past two years I can’t really accomplish much. Am I even an hard worker then? Is arrogance the problem? I have my dreams, life, and loved ones on the line and YET that is somehow not enough of an assentive for me to take care of the things I need to! Then I turn my insides inside out stressing about what I didn’t accomplish! Even if the unaccomplished deed is years old, it still haunts me! I’m a druggy to procrastination, always looking for my next fix without ever being fully satisfied. Always making little white lies to myself to justifying it. I’ve always been a procrastinator and I figured it to be a quirky part of my personality, but now it seems downright unbearable! I’m even procrastinating now as I type this! I should be doing: Looking for classes to add to my schedule, so I can keep my grant! Be writing articles for the Bento Bulliten about Daicon IV, robotic seals, and the origins of the negative connotations of the word otaku, etc I probably should be sleeping, I have work tomorrow I should get the pictures out of my cellphone so I can get a new one I should be making and uploading art on Deviant! I should go cut my bangs ….Just unbearable. What’s gross is that subconsciously or even consciously, I’m okay with racking myself to death over this. The knowledge of the harm it does to me is shruggable and even felt deserved. My procrastination discuss me. vents vents Well getting that off my chest feels a bit better or maybe my high from procrastinating is kicking in now. listens to the Beatles I know I have only myself to blame. I work myself up all by myself, with no aid needed. I don’t need a situation to work myself up, I can conjure it all by myself. I don’t want to sound whiney nor helpless. I just want to put my life in perspective. The how is the question and the one who is asking the question is the only one that knows the answer. One step at a time. I’ve always heard the first step to solving the problem is acknowledging it right? Ok, I helped out Peyo. Will restore sig later. Right now I'm gonna induldge in my current fandom! USxUK ftw! TrigunCat4 · Mon Sep 28, 2009 @ 09:14am · 0 Comments


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Ok, I helped out Peyo. Will restore sig later. Right now I'm gonna induldge in my current fandom!
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