Now the meeting went south before it even started, as the bishop asked me to give an opening prayer, and I accidentally said, "Dear Divine Goddess of the Moon," as I'd gotten into the habit of doing over the last few months. The Bishop gave me the weirdest look, and then he said the prayer. So I've sufficiently embarrassed myself, and now he's asking questions about my faith. I've known this man nine months, and we've developed a relationship where I can't lie to this man, so i tell him that i think this church isn't for me, and that Mormon spiritual energies are extremely violent when in a sensitive meditative state(They really are). So he says okay, which was better than I thought he would, but then the dreaded words come, "I'd like to help you work on that."
What is the problem with religious adults? Do they really think that teenagers are so naive and stupid that they don't know when they are feeling the church or not? I can tell you, I've been in that church all my life, and the most spiritual action I ever experienced, was the heater when i come in from the cold. That's about as 'tingly' as I get. Now when i study Wicca and The Craft, I feel a deep connection to everything around me and that connection gives me great joy. So I don't know where my religious allegiance lies, and I'm still on the fence? My faith in Mormonism is dead and there is no saving it.
Yet some people just can't keep their mouth shut and they called my parents. Now a word on parents. When there is an issue that, in reality, can be easily fixed if just left alone, parents will be there to royally screw it over. They do this in many ways. The most common is misdiagnosing the root of the problem. So naturally, my parents thought that Gaia and it's negative influence over me was the reason for my lack in belief.
So I've been going to all these meetings and such to help 'discover my true faith,' but it's mostly just me zoning out and meditating(Much easier to do with people who don't really believe).
And the highlight of my week, was reading the newest update of Naruto on onemanga.com. I must say that Kisame is one of my favorite characters, and it isn't just a recent obsession. I freakin loved Kisame before Itachi died. So his recent spotlight just makes me go squee~(and he's shirtless! Yummy). So anyway, I'm reading up to Samehada's betrayal, and I'm thinking, "NUUUU!!!! Don't leave Kisame!!" because when Samehada fused with Kisame, call me a dork, but I still thought Kisame was a sexy beast. And when I saw Samehada stand up, it was just so adorable I wanted to hug it! That is when the most epic punt made me laugh until I cried.
Oh man, life is good. But poor Samehada, I hope Kisame makes up for it. Oh great Masashi Kishimoto, please do me this one fan service and forgive Samehada.(Yes I'm such a fan girl. I know.)
