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So here I am... alone, big surprise there. Loving people I can never have. One of my friends said that these guys would wait for me, cause I'm a girl who's "worth waiting for". She lied. I'm so angry and hurt and humiliated and jealous and I feel so stupid. I'm a Leo, so these things seem like a big deal. These other girls that I'm left for are sooo pretty. That's the problem with me. I'll never be enough. Not pretty enough, not cool enough, not funny enough or sexy enough. I tried to hate these guy, I tried so hard, but I can't. I hate myself instead. But now I finally see what I need to learn from this. I don't deserve any better. First this one guy left (no names mentioned) and I figured, "Oh, I see, I only deserve that a*****e, obnoxious, super sexy yet entirely insensitive and arrogant ex of mine" but ten he stopped replying to emails and my friend told me why, he found some other girl that lives close to him. I'll bet she's pretty too. So now I see, I don't deserve this. I don't deserve this 'love' thing. I figure I was a terrible person in a past life, so yeah. Gods this sucks. I just want someone to hold me and tell me I'm wrong and it's all okay and they'll wait forever for me and all those corny lies. But no.