Nothing left but what you can't lose. It's hell when you're broken. Was that what needed to happen? I had to lose something to get something else? I sacrifice everything for this? Maybe I'm overreacting or over thinking. I'm fading into the darkness, giving up myself to hold me in place. I'm losing it, slowly. Hating every minute and hoping that nothing good comes out of this for me. I'm done. I'll stay Neutral and dance with tears in my eyes every time I remember. I'm gone now and I don't want to come back. I'll just be pieces left behind once more. I said no more. I wanted it to end. I want this to end too. But how? Forget? Go back? No, those are terrible ideas at this point. I learned from my mistakes and I certainly am not good enough. I belong helping, comforting, but not Loving. How long will I last? How long will this last? My whole existence has changed. Once I lose those abilities then I'll be nothing. Again, Maybe I just don't want any of it anymore.
Andromeda Scarlet · Mon Jan 11, 2010 @ 11:57am · 0 Comments |