Call it what you want, call me a whore, call me a slut, push me to the ground, break me until I can't be broken anymore. Hate me, Despise me, Make everyone shun me, I dare you. I'll let you do all that to me but the one thing I will never allow you to say to me is to move on when I already have. Half the stuff you did I deserved for betraying you, but you betraying me is worse. You can let your friend cuss me out too. I'm an idiot, I ******** up, I cheated, what's that gonna do? Make someone you used to love never want to trust you again. That's what will happen. Listen to me or not, I'll never be there because You don't need me. I'll live in the emptiness, the darkness, I'll make sure I never feel that happiness again. Just so I won't get some ******** up idea that you want to talk to me. I refuse to call you names but you can do whatever you want. I'll leave you alone, I'll never talked to you again, don't expect me to tell you. "I'm here to help."? No, you don't understand. You don't understand half of it when I already explained it to you...I made you happy at one point, I made you angry at others. Go ahead, call me and tell me to ******** off. Cuss me out, throw me to the ground and rub it in my face. I've been through it before. I'll go through it again and again. I'll force myself to stand back up and take it. All of it. Thanks a lot, I think I feel a whole lot better. And I really mean that. I'm able to understand now that I should've gave up on love a long time ago. I'll never be the person others expected me to be. I won't achieve my dreams of becoming an artist. I'll die on the street. And when I'm gone maybe then you won't even care about me. Maybe you won't have to deal with my "Sorry a** Whining."
Andromeda Scarlet · Mon Jan 11, 2010 @ 09:45pm · 0 Comments |