Identity
I searched for an identity for a while. I'm pretty laid back and shy, so, in school, I naturally fell into an outcast role. I probably could have just as easily been a goth, but I wasn't the type to research stuff like that. I was more of a geek anyway. Being into video games and fantasy in an institution focused on sports and athletic achievement makes you the negative pole: about as far from the mainstream as you can get. I still made a mark, though. Even though I never really spoke to anyone, most people knew who I was, and I was one of the more devoted students of the music program (I'm a saxophonist, clarinetist, and french horn player). Music is a big part of my life. Not a field of study or anything; more of a sonic drug, or something. Mood alteration without psychoactive chemicals. I think the best kind of music is that that can stir something in you; have an effect. Its not about lyrics, necessarily. I think the arts are rooted in the depths of the human mind and its emotions. On that note, I feel an image coming on that I simply must sketch.
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