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I am sure i am not the only one who feels this way, the one caught between two people, and not knowing what to do, because you feel played with...lost in this...InFaTuAtIoN or whatever you wish to call it. Oh hark! Listen to me! for you shall know my story of vendetta, my story of lament... How dare I come in at such a wrong time, and yet, how blissful i feel, because i know this love, yet, it is one sided.....only one sided. HARK HARK! here i am! will i never be good enough for you? or am i enough....and you are just TrApPeD in this....wanna be...LOVE. do not speak these LIES to me! I know what your plan is, and lucky you it's working...i need not to tell the rest of this story, because it has only just begun...and i am already..... .:BROKEN:.

I love how you can be jelous, of all the others...and i comfort you...No your most important to me. But i am jelous over ONE and theres no comforting there. I guess you know i am strong enough to get over it, but does that mean i'll get over you? it seems thats what my broken heart wants, because thats all it ever becomes....and i feel like your just like the rest of them...after i thought you were different.
Love love love love love love love love love love love love love love.....do you understand....ah hell...do i?
smite me down again! tell me things to make me feel better just to bring me down. I love what love seems to be to everyone.....torture...I used to sing...i used to dance down the street when talking to you. dream of you...think fo you...more than ANYTHING......is it worth it to be hurt...because your so damn PERFECT....i guess it is... i'll feel pain for you.


AND I'LL WAIT FOREVER.


As for the one whos the real reason for all my pain. How is it i can hate someone i dont even know. How is it that...i can feel such love for someone i am still beginning to know.....and hate you with such vigor. Dont even play fake with me....dont lie to your lover. Feel damn lucky you liar....because if i were them i wouldnt have forgiven you...your pathetic... i cant believe you've been forgiven. tisk tisk tisk, and i guess i am writing this out of..depression....but if your the cause..i guess i should tell you....atleast keep up my feelings untill i am no longer depressed...sleep deprived....and sick. I'm so sick..of all of this......Maybe i am the pathetic one...who knows and who cares.

as for you...my loved one...you have shown me you dont really care about me. Ouch. thankyou for leading me on...and if you didnt, show me so i can quit this assuming i have started. Oh....my heart hurts....