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loved, lov·ing.
–noun 1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. sexual passion or desire.


I'm so sick....this downward spiral twards life i have fallen into is bringing me down, this rut i seem to have gotten myself stuck in is making me want to puke. The dizzy spells i get from what i once knew. The sweet sound of you lulling me to sleep....and yet....HARK! you do not seem to conceive a thought about me...alas mayhap i am bringing this apon myself. but i am who i am.....i worry about you...my darling one. Oy. what i wouldnt do to make it better. I want to passout in your arms, be the pleasure that fills your heart with desire and lust. Oh am i good enough? Oh do you really really understand this....Love. I'm so sick, sick of it all. and it's not been too long even. Why do these feelings of mine decide to stick themselves in my brain for an eturnity? Maybe you are that amazing...but you do not believe so. I speak only truth, my love...i speak only what i know. And i know your.....a chip of perfection......paradice in the making...i want to lose myself in your eyes, your caress...your..heart...

Punch me so i may sleep again...