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Well i should explain myself for real, let you get to know me.....and REALLY know me.


Hight: 5'5-5'6
Weight (updated every day): 140
Age:15
Hair color (natural): Ashy brown, dark, shines gold in the summer sun
Hair color (right now): White/blonde, black
Body type:Athletic
Status:In a relationship, awaiting love from another....
School: Henrey D. Sheldon High
Occupation:Freshy
School "Status": I have friends, been labeled "Gothic" not the shy type.
Grades: At the moment not sure, but there not too good, i have been sick alot lately.
Current Mood: Confused, delirious, in love, in hate, mixed up, ******** up.

My life is interesting to say least, many things have transformed who i will be in the future, my over all outcome. How should i start things off? I was born October 27th 1991, My parents Carmen and Rusty had met when they were about 10, and fell in love. and stayed inlove. At age 15 my parents conceived a child which my mother named Christopher, he is around the age of 32-33 now, and i have never met him. My parents were forced to give him up. my mothers side of the family, hid it from everyone, not even some of my mom's 7 siblings knew untill this last year, and i finally found out when i came home with a hickey and they freaked out. My mother and father are each 47, 48 years old, i cant really remember, but thats because lately, i have pushed them away from me, I cant remember the last time i came straight home from school and stayed here, talking to them, "Bonding" My dad is the peace keeper, drunk, stoner. Gets high to make himself and my mother happy, sometimes the stress is too great i guess. As for drinking, well lets say, theres a damn damaged liver!! My mother is the deranged psycho b***h. she has Bi-Polar depression, rarely takes her meds, and basically EVERYTHING is MY fault. everything. ah well, she brings me up to push me down, meh just makes me stronger. But to tell the truth, it gets old when she yells at me EVERY DAMN DAY!

Moving on, I have 3 other siblings other than Christopher, from when my parents were married to other people.
Adam: Mom's son, dad's in prison, but he'll get out this year. has add, but is smart. graduated college for mechanics, manager at PC, worked there for 8 years now, makes more than my mother does. $$$ referred to as "Golden child"

Brandy: Dads daughter. silly, pink loving, drunk, party animal...HOE, earing whore, eye shadow whore, PREPPY. Basically, she is dads fave, although he wont admitt it. graduated college with a degree in psycology. decided to go back to college to become a teacher. Referred to as: the "Bright" child.

Kevin: Stoner, druggy, drunk, party animal, loves to mess with you, makes fun of people, screws up alot, didnt finish high school, everyone looks down on him but me, the one my parents tell me to NOT become, steals, lies, but is a good guy at heart. Referred to as: The "Bronze child"

Me, well i am THE DARK CHILD, because i am psychotic, and scary, and "Dark"


Hmmn well onward! My cousin Joshua O'brien killed himself 6 years ago. He was my favorite cousin, tall and buff, smart kid, fun loving, sweet, had EVERYTHING in the world going for him, great girlfriend, loving family, good schooling and job, We think it was his father who pushed him to the edge, I just wish he could swing me around once more, or atleast come by so i caould say i love him.

My family life, well it's complicated, my family is split into like a million little sides, who all hate the others, christmas, easter, you name it, were back and forth between sides, because were the middle family. My dad's side and my mother dont get along, and my mothers side doesnt even get along with it's self! probably because there all insane! Gosh, sometimes man, you'd just have to meet them i cant even explain it. One thing i can say though, to shead some light, my own uncle came at me with a gun once, i feel so special now! whee eh, atleast nothing happened to me right?

Best part about my family, was when the feueds just started, because it was my two uncles who started the whole thing, and it just so happened, my catholic grandmother, sucha sweet woman (hahahahahahha) invited the pope over. Lets just say...well i think were all going to hell! (if there is one, i am the only skeptic in the bunch...oh joy...)

Well what else can i say? I am out going, I love to try new things and meet new people. I am a sucker for a guy with long hair, and dark eyes. I am into pain with my pleasure, makes it feel like i deserve it. I'll test your wits so be ready. I dont just give up, i fight, I may say "I give up" but really thats to catch yah' off guard. I only lie to people i DONT like.
And believe me, you'll know if i dont like you.

When i say "I love you" i mean it, always. and i'll fight for your love, or die trying.



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