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we all have our moments, good ones...and bad ones. These moments can bring on new emotions and feelings that we aren't used to. Being kids, or rather, even worse, teenagers, we must learn to deal with these feelings, and how to act upon them in ways that are socially exceptable. As teenagers we have enough to worry about other then just these new emotions, peer presure, and acne, school, so much on our plates, but so much more. Feelings like love, depression, hatred, loathing, some we knew before, some some of us may not exprience, all different though. Like many others, I'm a teenager, and I have to learn to deal with things, and I get mad and sad, happy and everything in between like everyone else. I'm still just a kid, I'm still just learning. But at the same time, I feel so grown up, as I'm sure so many do. You aren't used to the responsiblities. Everyone has different ones, mine, is most generally my friends, that's my biggest responsibility. I worry about more than them just getting picked on, I worry about more than them just being teased, although that's something I watch for, instead of my biggest worry being other kids bullying them, I worry about them bullying themselves. I worry about them cutting, as many of them do, quiting school, as many wish to do, I worry about my friends doing something illegal, doing drugs, getting caught, but my biggest worry is my friends commiting suicide. I know there are many others out there who must worry about the same sort of things, and I knwo there are many others out there that have worse worrys, and I feel for them, with my greatest sympathy. It's not easy on a young developing mind to have their best firend's LIFE in their hands. You learn to control your temper, you learn how carefully you must pick yoru words, you learn when it's okay to tell an adult, but most of all, you learn that you aren't as grown up as you think you are, but you are most deffinitly not as young as others think you are. After so much experience of taking care of my friends, not to mention taking care of myself, I have learned how careful I need to be with some of them. Even the slightest upsettion *is that even a word?* can send them spiraling back into the dark depths of their sad mind, as they close themselves off more, and you have to slowly help to pry them open again, starting all over at the begining. So, when I lose my temper, when there is even the slightest possibility that I have upset someone, I start to freak out, even if they aren't a friend that I have to worry about like that. It's how I was taught to deal with it, apologizing like there's no tomorrow, and cursing myself for being so dumb. I know I can be annoying, I mean, can't we all? But, sometimes, the annoyingness of someone is absolutely not their fault, sometimes, it's all they know how to do when presented with a certain problem. It's like math, how some people have only learned and can only use their fingers to add up 2+2, while others have found shortcuts, and other ways, they've learned other ways. We all react to different situations differently. I'm still just a kid, I'm still just learning.

Can someone help me learn?