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These are the collection of poems that I myself wrote a while back...Sorry about them being a bit dark and please excuse the profanity, they are not used to offend, just to express... <br />
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Finding Oneself<br />
Watchin the pouring rain as the sun shine<br />
Losing my fucking mind<br />
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Things that are gone,<br />
Should be left alone<br />
<br />
Things that are lost,<br />
leaves you high, drunk, and fucked up with drug overdose<br />
<br />
Things should be kept unsaid,<br />
As it's always too late<br />
<br />
The reason for living,<br />
fades away<br />
The reason for dying,<br />
comes today<br />
<br />
For life had no purpose<br />
and after all the curses<br />
<br />
Looked at the pouring rain,<br />
found my reason to live, and the fact that I am sane<br />
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Life's a Bitch<br />
Destiny cannot be swayed,<br />
The direction of life will never fade<br />
<br />
Even when it's too late,<br />
And you've finally start to concentrate<br />
<br />
Fixing the wrong and try to manipulate,<br />
In the end, all you will find is fate<br />
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Fading From Sight<br />
What once was gold<br />
has rusted a thousandfold<br />
Figures turn cold<br />
What can be preserved has turned to mold<br />
What can we hold?<br />
If I may be so bold...<br />
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And Memories last both new and old<br />
The wind blows east of the valley<br />
Across the rows of grass, chatters can be heard from the rally<br />
<br />
People gather around the vast<br />
Field, energized by the excitement of being with the mass-<br />
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es, Creating new memories which hold in their hearts<br />
While keeping their past recorded in the charts<br />
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of their mind, believing that one day,<br />
It will come around and just may<br />
Come back another day<br />
And show us all the way<br />
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What is my true destiny?<br />
What is my true destiny?<br />
<br />
Have I lost or gained what is meant to be?<br />
Has fate decided what is me?<br />
<br />
Or will I look back and see<br />
The old me crawling on my knee<br />
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And forgive, forget, in order to find what it's like to be free<br />
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For a memory is something that one can remember and see<br />
Watching the past memories in the back of my mind,<br />
Replaying through the most embarrassing scene I can find<br />
My thoughts left back, caught in the past, and bind-<br />
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ed, that illusion of being the center of attention<br />
The things that I try to say, but never mention-<br />
ed, slowly rising up and building the tension<br />
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But the one that sees the past is only me,<br />
Others can't remember it, they can't see<br />
And for those who does, they leave it be<br />
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Only I am stuck in this perpetual nightmare<br />
Fighting my archenemy in the back of the lair<br />
of my mind, tried to ask for help but no one care<br />
Although I can't say that, it's not fair<br />
They can't see what I see, they don't know what I bear<br />
I wonder if I'll ever wake up from this nightmare....<br />
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silent tears remain<br />
Day by day living through this time<br />
Only walking by flesh, the rest is a mime<br />
Repeating what others say, did, and done for a mere dime<br />
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At the end of the day, people repeated<br />
"You're always smiling, unlike us, you don't look defeated"<br />
For the others who know, they chimed "conceited"<br />
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What's left of me is pain<br />
These silent tears remain<br />
And all I do is vain<br />
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But these tears won't hold me, so scurry<br />
What people say, don't worry<br />
Release all that is locked, don't say sorry<br />
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like you've always thought you had<br />
Screams echoing, windows breaking<br />
The glass splatters, hearts forsaking<br />
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Like you've always thought you had<br />
But found that it all just doesn't add<br />
<br />
She was always faking<br />
You give, and she keeps taking<br />
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Like you've always thought you had<br />
But now, it just makes you mad<br />
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The thought that all you're staking<br />
In this relationship had bring fourth the aching<br />
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Like you've always thought you had<br />
And all that's left is the sad-<br />
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ness creeping up inside you<br />
It's not even possible to start anew<br />
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Like you've always thought you had<br />
But you never thought that it would turn so bad<br />
<br />
and you ended up alone<br />
Trust, who needs them?<br />
Beliefs, we still condemn<br />
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In the end, you're all alone<br />
Talking to that monotone on your phone<br />
<br />
Thinking someone might answer you<br />
But in the end, that's too good to be true<br />
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For you have forsaken all humanity<br />
Friends, family, loved ones, all vanity<br />
The only peace, salvation, is insanity<br />
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to lose your mind along with your guilt<br />
The rhythm is so loud, it keeps thumping<br />
It's a nuisance, my heart keeps bumping<br />
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Breathe, breathe...it's not WORKING!<br />
It drives me insane, it's always lurking<br />
<br />
Deep inside, want to tear out my heart<br />
Slowly, but surely, my mind falls apart<br />
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RED, red spreads across my vision<br />
My mind's blank, I no longer envision<br />
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Surely, this can't be the end of my world<br />
But, AH...the rhythm is gone, its unfurled<br />
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But Death is the Only One I See Coming<br />
The mindset of our generation has always been,<br />
Get education, be successful, have a good life, settle in,<br />
If you fail at one of these, brace yourself, but never lean<br />
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On anyone else, keep your pride at your side,<br />
Don't show your weaknesses, don't run and hide.<br />
Someday, your chance will come, wait patiently, bide<br />
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Your time, till one day, the world will adore you<br />
They'll see your hidden talents, they'll do everything for you<br />
Your life fulfilled, your troubles gone with minted paper like a lawyer<br />
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Ignore those who didn't make it, they never attempted<br />
They don't deserve it like you do, they were tempted<br />
by their evil inside their minds, they relented<br />
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Ignore their smiles, they're all wearing masks<br />
Even though you never smiled in years, look at the facts<br />
Your pocket is full, your bank is overflown, relax<br />
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Even when all you see is death coming to your door<br />
Biding your time, minted paper is all you got to live for,<br />
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While the others who have failed to live up to the standard,<br />
They still got more, even those who pandered.<br />
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A World of Greed<br />
It started out innocent<br />
All you wanted was accomplishment<br />
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Work hard, get money, be successful<br />
But the farther you walk, the more you get stressful<br />
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In your left, drug dealers, hustlers, pimps<br />
To your right, lawyers, politicians, CEOs that you can glimpse<br />
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On, are all richer than you, happier than you<br />
In this world of greed, you can't make it through<br />
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Without deceit, without covering yourself in lies<br />
The world teaches you, the truth? Revise!<br />
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Follow the world, it will give you everything you ask for<br />
Even if you have to abandon everything at the core<br />
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Freeze your hearts, work your mind,<br />
Pull the trigger on all that is kind<br />
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I'll live or I'll die, in this place without fear<br />
In this place without fear,<br />
No questions asked, it's all clear.<br />
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In this place without fear,<br />
There is no lies, nor is there truth, nothing to hear.<br />
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In this place without fear,<br />
Nothing to live for, nothing to think of, we just adhere.<br />
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In this place without fear,<br />
Nothing to die for, no value to death, no cries, no tear.<br />
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In this place without fear,<br />
No meaning to life, no grace in death, nothing to severe.<br />
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In this place without fear,<br />
Have we been forsaken, is there nothing we can revere?<br />
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In this place without fear,<br />
All hope is gone, all dreams are history, no one can persevere.<br />
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In this place without fear,<br />
How I wish, I wish...I could disappear.<br />
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And that was that<br />
It started all the same, nothing could be done without creation<br />
On top of it all, unity formed us as a nation<br />
Banding together, speaking of brotherhood, building a foundation<br />
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The cheerful days soon be gone out of rationality<br />
What we used to cherish, it's all gone, the realization of immorality<br />
The union mentality dissipates like ash in the wind, bringing about fatality<br />
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The new generation turns at us, sneered, what a mock-<br />
ery, the brotherhood, they quickly ran at the sight of us, lock<br />
the door to familiarity, what's left is a gun to show us of freedom, cock!<br />
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And that was how everything always turns out<br />
First was birth, then death came upon us, and that was that, no doubt<br />
about it, the only thing we could do was accept our fate, shout<br />
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These are the words of those who are lost<br />
Those who know not of the gentle fiery avian, the savior of no cost<br />
What we've learned, -Rebirth- , The River no longer crossed<br />
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Heaven or Hell's Halls<br />
When asked, do you prefer heaven or hell?<br />
It's no doubt the answer, no one even needs to spell<br />
<br />
However, if that is truly so,<br />
Even if they've answered the first clearly though<br />
<br />
When asked, do you prefer to live on earth or die?<br />
Why do all choose contradictorily, hesitating to say goodbye....<br />
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I am mere flesh and bone<br />
What makes me, me? What do I embody?<br />
oxygen, carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen, calcium, and phosphorus makes up my entire body<br />
Yet what I feel, this pain in my heart, what I disembody<br />
<br />
takes up my entire time<br />
the fast beating of my heart continues to chime<br />
Day by day, slaving over a dime<br />
<br />
But what is lost can no longer be reached<br />
The words of those cared for me, revealing in my mind, they preached<br />
So this pain in my heart, the rose staining my sight, this memory of lost time, it must be bleached<br />
<br />
For in the end, I am but a man<br />
merely flesh and bone, no matter how hard I ran<br />
These feelings will only reach a life span<br />
<br />
Thus, I walk on this solitary road<br />
Never deceiving, never forgetting my code<br />
<br />
while eyes and hands go astray<br />
In the beginning,<br />
We all wanted the same thing<br />
<br />
Together hand by hand towards the Promised Land<br />
Day by day, everything was all planned<br />
<br />
Never would we thought that we'd end up this way<br />
Never would He thought that we would cease to pray<br />
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Eyes and hands go astray<br />
<br />
Instead of heaven, what we see is the smoke of grey<br />
Instead of together, we take arms and make enemies everyday<br />
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Where have we gone wrong, what do we say?<br />
Can even He save us now? Can we right the way?<br />
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We race our way before the end of the day, before we decay<br />
Hoping for the last moment, where we lay<br />
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Our Tears of Joy....<br />
Glass-stained windows, the overbearing castle around me<br />
Rusted chains, stuck against the wall, never to be free<br />
Overweight ball and chain, kept me to the ground, kept me to my knee<br />
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Sleep, hardly can be gotten, Lay awake till I faint<br />
Eat, what's there is what I got, no means of complaint<br />
Clean, the only shower is the dripping paint<br />
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Tears, regardless of what Thales said, I no longer have enough<br />
Joy, never have I met, not even the exhausted relief could bring satisfaction<br />
Consolation, the only means I'm allowed, the pouring rain flowing rough<br />
Crying for me, even if these wounds won't heal, Blessed be the distraction<br />
Content, so that one day the tears of joy may come<br />
Final words, and then there's nothing left but to succumb<br />
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to wait patiently...<br />
Tick, tock, tick, tock, time just keeps on runnin'<br />
The world spins forward, never fittin' in<br />
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To wait patiently, to stay still<br />
Is to die, to have no will<br />
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What's life if all that can be gotten is to be forgotten<br />
What's the proof of life if minds are stopped, turning rotten<br />
<br />
To wait patiently is to die<br />
To live is to say why?<br />
Never giving in, acceptance? deny!<br />
And the fight goes on, never ending, till someone says "aye"<br />
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From the Pain of Grief<br />
Born with a crack<br />
Eventually, it'll turn into a plaque<br />
Life's gone, but the pain remains, never can we fight back<br />
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Grow with sorrow<br />
The mind gives in, no one to borrow<br />
from, Life dissipates, resenting tomorrow<br />
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Die with grief<br />
Deathbed won't give relief<br />
Life robs, no reason, no chance to turn over a new leaf<br />
<br />
But the pain of the grief will always remind<br />
That even Life too, will never succeed to bind<br />
<br />
For the crack will itself heal,<br />
And the sorrow, no one can reveal<br />
The grief, liberated and no longer feel<br />
<br />
When we let go,<br />
And fall against the forces of the earth below,<br />
Salvation awaits, eternal sleep, no more woe<br />
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That I Wake at the Desk, Far From the Last Line<br />
The truth is cruel to those who know<br />
Peace can no longer be enjoyed, the time can no longer flow<br />
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The duty that comes with the truth<br />
Is nothing but a burden, fragmenting the youth<br />
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But they who know must not keep silent<br />
Record the truth, chain the self to the seat, get violent<br />
<br />
For they are the ones that must spread the news<br />
Even if they are to be mocked, untrusted, bruise<br />
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That I wake at the desk, far from the last line<br />
Must mean that I have neglected my duties, my design<br />
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Hurry! Time does not wait, neither can I<br />
The page goes unwritten, the world corrupts without knowing why<br />
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Only those who know can see the truth, that I remember<br />
And while knowledge brings pain, I am chained a member<br />
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And the world looks at resent for those who brings the knowledge<br />
For they see peace in ignorance, they won't acknowledge<br />
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But the pain remains inside, for I cannot decline<br />
My journey, my duty, my burden, they are all mine...<br />
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I'll Be Reborn<br />
Everyday, life still goes on in a mundane way<br />
Someday, it'll all end, you know what they say<br />
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However, time is too long to wait, to long to persevere<br />
Forever, I choose to end the time, to end this life here<br />
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Wherefore shall I go, what I shall become, reborn<br />
Therefore, time will reset, the earth restrict the soul like thorn<br />
<br />
Infernal, even the deepest depth of hell cannot rebound<br />
Eternal, time, this life, how profound...<br />
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His Soul For His Absolution<br />
Born with nothing, end up disadvantaged<br />
Life hits just as hard, even to those who managed<br />
To endure, in the final moments, it doesn't matter if you're advantaged<br />
<br />
So, in this capitalistic society<br />
We are forced to greed, lust, anxiety<br />
Trample those below, fuck piety<br />
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And to those who dream of absolution<br />
Give up your body, your soul, your resolution<br />
Bow down to the Bourgeoisie, that's the only solution<br />
<br />
But to those who are rational, free of the mind<br />
Don't let the chains cloud the truth, don't let it blind<br />
You, for the freedom lies not within the soul or the body, for all of mankind<br />
<br />
The truth can only lie within the thought<br />
That one can be free, never to get caught<br />
For that is but everything that is allowed, all that we can sought<br />
<br />
And the Proletariat must put down their tools<br />
Abandon all physical resistance, the mind will break down all the rules<br />
And that's how humans break away, cease to become fools<br />
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The world as you know it, isn't so bad<br />
What you see is what you perceive<br />
Therefore, the world is as you believe<br />
However, that goes for everyone, don't be naive<br />
<br />
Suffering to you, might be salvation<br />
Destruction to you, might be innovation<br />
Greed to you, might be determination<br />
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Thus, the world as you know it, isn't so bad<br />
For even ugliness might be a fad<br />
And even cruelty is joyful to the mad<br />
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And that's how one succumbs to the word<br />
Throw away your senses, accept the absurd<br />
In the end, you're nothing but a fragment of the herd<br />
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Illusionary Beauty [Petrachan (Italian) Sonnet]<br />
Beauty, the most delicate star that shine<br />
Magnified by jewelry that we use<br />
The luster that we hope it never lose<br />
Energize us to find a golden mine<br />
But those of us with knowledge, drew a line <br />
For true beauty lies in a woman whose<br />
Talk, and walk, and manner caused quite a ruse<br />
That a man would spend all his life to find<br />
<br />
But, beauty is all but everlasting<br />
All the gold mine would soon have gone away<br />
And at the end of the day, we all laid<br />
Our jewelry away, slowly rusting<br />
Its shine, less beautiful than yesterday<br />
We all watch as the women slowly fade.<br />
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The Sought for Enemy [Shakespearean Sonnet]<br />
Love, a common emotion we all share.<br />
Do we fear it's presence, or do we find<br />
it's comfort? Tears apart all that is fair,<br />
and impairs our judgment, our thoughts, our mind.<br />
<br />
It appears amongst the ones that we love<br />
The feeling that destroys our sanity<br />
Starts out wonderful, yet ends into suf-<br />
fering. En'my of all humanity.<br />
<br />
However, it is the gold that we sought<br />
The warmness that we seek, heavenly light<br />
that every mankind had eagerly fought<br />
for, believing till their end, all is right<br />
<br />
So, for I am a man, I too share this<br />
fight, this conquest to find eternal bliss<br />
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These are written for the two minute poetry game thread, so no titles<br />
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1.Another one?<br />
Why keep making these things?<br />
The old one never gone<br />
Yet, the new one sings<br />
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Don't worry<br />
These things won't linger<br />
As I type with my finger<br />
I can't help but say sorry<br />
<br />
The time is slowly ticking<br />
The online timer I've set is slowly reaching<br />
The end of its time,<br />
And is therefore, the end of my rhyme<br />
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2. The rain is dripping<br />
The sun shines in the midst of the blur<br />
The windows scream, the rain punishing it heavily, ripping<br />
No one can speak clearly, nothing is heard clearly, its all a slur<br />
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But don't worry, the rain will surely stop<br />
For tomorrow, it gives us all new hope<br />
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3. In the midst of the time,<br />
In the midst of my rhyme<br />
<br />
The world is slowly turning<br />
My eyes bloodshoot, my blood churning<br />
<br />
What have I done? What do I do now?<br />
This nightmare won't dissipate from me anyhow<br />
<br />
Sirens are slowly blaring its way to me<br />
The storm outside makes it too hard to see<br />
<br />
Showered with the blood of the one that I love<br />
I wonder if I can move on, if he'll let me, the one above...<br />
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4. Black, everything is black<br />
The Eclipse, enveloping the light, therefore we lack<br />
<br />
The shine of the sun, no longer there<br />
People watching the outline of others, they don't know where<br />
<br />
A scream suddenly heard<br />
Has the world ended? One asked, don't be absurd<br />
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For the darkness brings forth people's nature<br />
People's faces blurring, their built up lies denature...<br />
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5. The skies dark, the clouds hovering<br />
A girl in the midst of the darkness, tears<br />
Others passing by, wondering<br />
Why the atmosphere is so thick, everyone fears<br />
<br />
The overbearing madness of the thunder<br />
The ominous cloud above, so high<br />
One thing they all know, its no wonder<br />
Who the nature has sided with, rain pours down as the girl cry<br />
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