• No sleep, no sex for you from your ex-girlfriend
    I was in too deep can’t let you call me just jump in
    At times I would push my feelings aside to let you feel
    Im Novocain, Im numb and nothing’s real


    “Sakura! Can you meet me at the flower shop after lunch?” Ino called after me as I ran past her. “Yah, I’ll see u there!” I replied turning around to face her jogging backwards. ‘Got to get to Tsunade-sensei to turn in my report.’ That was the only thing I was thinking then. She was saying something else but I only caught bits and pieces. “…. you…. me… going…. date!” I stopped jogging. Did she just ask me out? YESH! Finally! Eat that Sasuke! I waved and turned around and ran all the way to the Hokage’s mansion. I rushed through my report told Tsunade about Ino and as she congratulated me I ran back outside. Running to my apartment people wave and greet me as I go by. I see Naruto at the ramen stand competing with Choji in an eating contest while the other boys cheer them on. I look around them and notice that Sasuke is missing.


    Like the coldest winter
    Im frozen from you
    I was weak before now you’ve made me
    So numb I don’t feel much for you any more


    I can’t believe I used to like him. Before he left I used to think I loved him, but it was a lie. He was just something else Ino obsessed over. I wanted to be just like her so I tricked my self into loving him. I made my self believe that I thought this feeling was real. I lost Ino because of that stupid fight over him. That was when I finally realized what was going on in my head. There was a dark blue ocean and I was slowly being swallowed by it.


    I gave you all my body
    Im numb, numb, numb


    When he eventually left I told him I loved him. It felt awkward to tell him that, but I did it anyway. Ino and I became better friends after he was gone. We were like sisters, but I wanted us to be more. I never told her that though. We would train together to try and become stronger. I would train with Tsunade in the morning, Ino in the afternoon, and Kakashi at night. I wanted to train with Naruto, but he left with Jairya. Then when he returned with Sasuke he would either train alone or with the emo kid. When I asked him if he wanted to go train with me he just brushed me off like I was a waste of time. That was the only time Naruto truly hurt me making my head bob under the waters surface. He doesn’t even talk to Kakashi anymore! He was always with Sasuke. Im surprised he’s not with him now. I open the door to my apartment and lock it once inside.


    But the tears were silent inside you see
    But the tears were silent inside you see


    I shed off my clothes and stepped into the shower. I shuddered violently as the water that hit me was still freezing cold. Cold. That was the type of guy Sasuke was when I ‘liked’ him. That was the only type of guy I ‘liked’ back then. I used to think I could some how ‘fix’ them. Every time I tried to ‘fix’ Sasuke he would always just pull me back under the dark blue water. I tried to swim by being happy and masking my emotions. But it never worked. Every attempt I tried ended up backfiring and making me sink again. Ino helped me when I was close to the bottom. She got me swimming and soon I was fly to the sun. I turned the dial and the water turned scorching hot. The water boiled my skin and turned it red. The water punished me for every thing I had done that year. There was so many bad things I had done I didn’t think that it would wash off. I open my closed eyes and the dark blue water is far below me while the sun is so close I could almost touch it. I lather the lavender scented shampoo in to my hair. I threw out the sweet strawberry smelling crap because I used to wear it to catch Sasuke’s attention. This lavender one smells like Ino. I think this is one is the same one she uses. I put my head back in the water and the shampoo washes slowly down the drain.


    I laid there quiet
    And watched you have your way with me


    Stepping out of the shower it’s cold again making me think of Sasuke’s eyes. I see only black as I screech “I HATE YOU!”. The color comes back and I feel warmth trickling off my hand, as the sun gets a little further away. I look at my hand and see that I punched my reflection in the mirror. The blood began to pour from my hand as I pulled the flakes of glass from my knuckles. The sun got further away with every piece I pulled out. With no more pieces in my hand I slowly healed the damage. The pain pulled my thoughts back to Sasuke. He would pay for every thing he has done. Its all his fault that Ino ad I got in that fight. I clinged to him because it made Ino jealous and she looked cute when she was mad. But when she got mad and yelled at me it hurt me. During the exams when we had to fight inside I was skating on thin the thin bottom of the dark ocean. With every hit I gave and took I would sink lower. When my head was almost under the sand my inner was pulling her hardest to get me out. When Ino held my headband out to me saying that we were still friends I shot out of the sand and my head was now above the water. I was swimming instead of sinking.


    I might have cried
    But the tears were silent in side you see


    I look out side my window and notice that it’s snowing again. A mother is putting a blanket around her child. I used to daydream about having Sasuke’s child and taking care of it. That dream is long gone. I guess I better get going ‘cause its almost time for me to meet Ino! I can’t wait! I grab my trench coat and put it over my clothes I had slipped on. My gloves now fit around my hands like an extra layer of skin 'cause I use them so often. I slip the second glove on as I walk out side and close the door with my foot. The streets were slowly getting covered with a thick layer of snow as people are going inside and closing their stores. Now alone and cold I head to the Flower Shop. I walk past the Ramen Stand, which is now abandoned, and dark. It was different looking a few hours ago. Alone the streets I notice the other stands look exactly like the Ramen Stand. I feel a strong chakra force closing in on me and I turn around to see Itachi inches away from me. He shoves a scroll in to my hand and disappears. What the crap was that about? I shove the scroll in to a pocket in my trench coat and run of to find Ino. I don’t even think about Itachi because the Atsuki have been leaving me messages in my house asking me to join. I haven’t told anyone because I don’t want to be a burden by making people worry.


    You called me names
    Made me feel like I was dumb
    I didn’t feel a thing


    I see Ino standing with a smile on her lips. Oh, how I would love to kiss those lips, to feel her against me. The thought makes me shudder. I stop as I see Sasuke there making her smile. NO! That was the smile she always showed me when we would go hang out! I run up to him and push him away from her. “Sakura what are you-“ “Shut up Sasuke!” I cut him off. He was not going to take her away!


    And now Im gone, gone
    Like a battered child
    I got used to your pain but you know its ‘cause


    “Get away from her Sasuke!” I yell at him. “SAKURA!” Ino yells at me. The sun gets closer. “Ino! Are you okay?” “I was fine until you showed up!” she was furious. “Well you asked me to meet you here!” “But I didn’t ask you to go in to bitchy mode when you got here!” she yelled once more. “Well you wanted to go on a date…. so here I am.” I blew my bangs out of my face. She looked at me then to Sasuke. She burst out laughing and the laughter was directed to me. “What?” I looked at her then to Sasuke who was smirking. “Why would I go out with you?! You’re a girl! I don’t roll that way Sakura!” the sun got closer. I got confused. One because she asked me out and is now saying she didn’t. Two because the sun was getting closer. “But you asked me this morning.” I pointed out hoping it would jog her memory. “I had said ‘thanks. you are going to meet my date’. You are so stupid some times! Just as bad as Naruto!” she was giggling now leaning on Sasuke. “By the way! This is my date! I finally out him to out with me!” she smiled again as I shot up to the sun. I was getting to close and now inner was trying to pull me down. “See. Told you. She won’t even answer. Just how Naruto was when he found out.” Sasuke smirked at me as if saying ‘I win’. I walked up to him and punched him in the face causing his nose to bleed. “Sakura! Stop!” Ino shouted and she sounded scared. I backed up from him and walked up to her. “I hope you’re happy with your choice.” I snarled at her with a glare that could challenge Gaara’s and I walked off after I got a whimper from her.


    I was weak before now you’ve made me
    So numb I don’t feel much for you any more


    I was now running and the tears were falling. I wasn’t heading to my apartment anymore. There was nothing here for me anymore. I hear feet behind mine as I ran. I stop at the gates of the village and hear the other person walking up to me. “Sakura?” it was Naruto. “I can’t stay here any more Naruto.” “Then take me with you.” I turn to face him and I see the same expression on his face that’s on mine. “Let’s go.” I turn back around as I put my hands in my pockets in my coat. I take out the scroll is now open and Naruto is looking over my shoulder. He smirks. “Shall we go?” “We shall.”


    I gave you my all my baby
    Now I’m numb, numb, numb


    I don’t know how long we stood there looking at the entrance of the hideout. “Let’s do this.” Inside was dark and Itachi looked at me then Naruto. He lifted his eyebrow, but led us to the leader. “Well?” he asked looking at us. “I have-” we both started. We looked at each other. Apparently Naruto got an invite too. “We have decided” I started as he finished “yes. We’ll join.”