• 'Just as every symphony has an end, one day our song came to an conclusion, too. Could I, too, disappear from the audience with a smile on my face when the show was finally done?' The closer I came to your apartment, the place where we first kissed, the rooms where we lived together, the harder my heart beat. I looked up at your window. 'I was so happy here, away from the shadows that suffocated me, the evil that tried to control me, the loneliness that threatened to strangle me. So happy…' But when I stood outside your door, ringing the bell and waiting for you to come out, which you never would. The silence and nothingness that greeted me explained everything: something was wrong, terrible wrong. 'I had never thought of myself as lonely, even though I was, but without you, it was clear how abandoned I feel. Was this your revenge because I refused to come back with you? Couldn’t you have waited for me to grow up a little? Couldn’t you have waited for me to come to my senses?' I took the spare key and slid it into the lock, the door sliding open easily. The first thing I saw was the gun and used bullets on the ground. The wound to your head was self-inflicted. 'Because I never said it to you. I never said it to anyone, but I should have told it to you, because it was how I felt, how I still feel in spite of your betrayal…In the end, you were the light in my darkness, my only way forward. Wherever you are now, I want you to know…

    …that I love you, too.' heart