• Although it wasn't at the moment, I realized later why I felt this way. Part of it was that Kay didn't tell me anything. She only spoke to Mother. Why didn't she speak to me?

    I was angry at her, though I did not want to be. How could I be mad at her when she died to protect me? And yet, somehow I couldn't shake the feeling of anger.

    "Andreana, after everything, you're still mad at me?" My eyes opened wide as my sister's voice reached my ears.

    "Kay, Kay! Are you there?! Where are you?!" My arms flailed out into the air aimlessly, trying to catch the ghost of my sister and take it into my arms, never again letting it slip away from me. Unfortunately, I could not find it.

    "I am here, Andy, but you cannot touch me. My body is non-existent. But..." I felt a chill sweep over my hair, down my neck and back, and I knew it was her trying to comfort me. "You can still feel when I touch you, yes?"

    "Yes, I can, Kay. You aren't going to leave, are you?"

    A laugh rung through the small room. "I have to eventually, you know?"

    "No, Kay, don't! Don't go until I can come with you! I don't care what it takes, let me be with you!" I picked up a pocket knife from my bedside table and I heard the ghost of my sister gasp.

    And then mother walked in, and she, too, gasped. She ran toward me and threw the knife from my hand. It crashed onto the floor and I burst into uncontrolled sobs. I knew Kay had gone.

    Mother took me into her arms and held me, crying, too, and told me a thousand times why she couldn't lose me.

    1. She couldn't bare to lose another child.
    2. Because it wasn't yet my time.
    3. It wouldn't be fair for Kay to have lost her life for me if I were going to take it, anyway.

    It took a few hours for her to finally leave me alone, but when she finally did, I sat on my bed staring at the picture of me and Kay hugging. I wished a million times that we could be like that again, but, alas, I knew that we could not.




    I was officially broken.


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    ((Wish I could write more, but I can't. Sorry it's so short!!))