• I knew what would have happened if we were to get bonded together. I knew that she never had the same feelings for me as I did for her. I had turned her down the first time in my defense, while we were at a hotel lobby.



    She who sat right on my lap as I held her firmly, I guess you can call us friends with benefits, if that fits the title of us. She had always thought that I fell in love with her at first glance, you know? Like in those romantic-comedy movies that girls would beg their boyfriends to see, but no. Both of us together...we were just friends.



    We just got along better than some other people I guess. I always loved how her laughter would fill up the whole room until people started to stare at us, and how she always dressed in those gloomy layers of hers, covering her beautiful frame. What was the need to be ashamed of? I didn't care how the ugly shade of blue eyeshadow that she put on would smudge by the end of the day and made her look like some outrageous animal , it still seemed to match her blue eyes.



    But I rarely cared for that, I was charmed by the way she looked.



    But I don't love her yet. Not even in eighth grade when I was asked by her to the dance. No…, I didn’t love her yet.

    It was when she found out that she was a vampire,I fell for her. She didn’t even flinch at knowing that was her destiny…her fate and only finding this out a few months ago. Having enough strength and courage others wouldn't be able to gain, its somehow beautiful.



    I guess your still wondering why I fell for her, huh? I guess it was because I didn’t want anyone else. Any other ordinary guy to be by her side instead of me… (Chuckle) I don’t even get why I even tape recorded this… So I guess you can call me selfish . I only wanted her by my side. Me and her…both of us, so different. As she who will go on living forever and me having only one life time with her…getting to live only once. I just wanted to hold her tight like in the hotel lobby, to just grasp her with all my might just this once.



    So yeah, I do love her. I loved her more when she was looking for me at my usual hiding spot somewhere in New York. So I guess that’s why I went out and chased her, getting on the next plane just for her. You really think I would not go after her? But you really think I went to her blind and not knowing? I always knew what would happen even if I was her familiar. I knew that her feelings for me wouldn’t change at all. And the other guy? I never think much of him. I highly doubt that they would ever end up together. He belongs to someone else and that person would never sacrifice to be with her because of their close relationship with each other. Even if both of them love each other or at least think that they do, it’s impossible. Cause anyone can see that both of them are wrong for each other. And he is going to have to leave her. He’s just too much for her to handle. Just too much for one newborn vampire.

    But when he does leave her or she finally realizes that they can’t be together. I will be there. Waiting for her. No matter how long it takes.



    So I guess she’s wrong on this one, I guess I am a pretty romantic guy after all.