• When you wake up from the world of dreams what do you hear? Do you hear the cries from lonely birds calling for company? Do you hear the monster crawling out of his tomb and stomping around? Do you hear the playful wind? Or when you raise what do you see? Do you see the lonely door calling your name to open it? When you do, do you see smiling faces staring at you hoping you’ll take all their pain away!
    No that’s not what I see or hear or even smell, no when I wake up everyday to see nothing hear nothing, when I walked to my kitchen waiting for someone to be there with a warm smile, no not even that.
    I’m alone in this cruel wounded world of mine! Nothing but dust loneliness and hate, I walked thou the quiet roads, stray cats steal a glance at me then hiss in disgust ! The sky is a gloomy grey today, I never once said hello to the Achacoso Man which means sick unhealthy man. But now I wished I did, he was the only one who seemed to noticed a lost song among the free spirited! But he passed on to the land where hopes and dreams came true! I stop and merely steal a glance where the man kept the stone step warm but now it has to face the cold and loneliness this world brings! I continued to walk alone, it’s the beginning of a new school year.
    I despised when you get stared down for being the new girl! It sickens me , this corrupted soul they know nothing at all! Staring at a girl who can’t bear the touch of a smallest drop of rain. I clenched a fist digging into my naked hand hoping, praying it would bleed but it didn’t. From a distance I heard a giant bells slam into each other trying to win a war they we’re having but it only made it sound like angels where singing. I reached my doom, It was an academy, for the rich I suppose. I couldn’t stand it !!!!
    But my legs had a mind of its own it slowly made it way up the stairs until I reached the double doors with blood lust words saying WELCOME TO RAVEN WOOD ACADEMY! I gentle reached out toward it’s like I found my safe home my sanctuary when I finally felt the cold touch of the metal knob it fly open like a bird caged up for way to long
    1 I fell to the cold ground , “Ah I’m so sorry! “ said a female voice as loud as lightening was her voice, when I finally looked at her she had a face that the angels would be jealous of! Her eyes were a lake clear blue, brown hair as fresh as honey her skin was a white as a ghost. She reached out to touch or to help me but I jump back like a frighten Rabbit “DON’T TOUCH ME!” I hissed as a snake would she looked scared I gentle pulled myself off the ground that when I heard the blast of music it was pulling me toward it, I was walking like in a dream I had no idea what I was doing but I need to get there.
    When I reached two open doors, their sat a boy with red hair color of fresh blood spilled, his skin the color of sweet caramel then I snap back and cursed out loud making him stop playing , he turn slightly his eyes where a green like a meadow in spring “may I help you?” he said in a cold voice it pieced the air around us. “No I cant bear to be near a man pleaser !”my words seem to cut him deeply into his skin and soul. He slammed his hands on the keys making them scream in pain, “WHO THE HECK ARE YOU!” HE WAS IN FLAMES HIS GLARE COULD FRIGHTEN THE GRIM REAPER BUT I surpassed him, I stood there silent which angered him more, he clasp both his long fingers around the seat legs and lifted it above his hand so far back I thought his arms will brake and prayed it did, then he released it ,it came quick like death, I turn to the left and it slammed into the wall braking into many pieces.
    I laughed a heartless painful laugh that made your soul bleed and gives children have nightmares someone behind me yelled “enough Neil” but he didn’t listen he charged at me, I let him push me against the wall his long strong fingers around my neck I didn’t flinch or cry out I already met death! * YOU DIRTY!” HE BEGIN BUT I INTERED “ HOW DOES IT FEEL?!” I asked with a wicked smile he had a face of confusion “How does it feel?!” I repeated like a chorus in a song “feel what” he growled like no human at all but a beast, I lean closer to him and coldly whispered “HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE UNWANTED UNLOVED AND FEEL LIKE A MONSTER!” I felt his fingers loosen then I was free , I saw a his face I smiled with his fear and turn and walked out . Where his finger once laid buried my naked neck I slowly walk to a room and walk in, I didn’t care if someone saw me. I lean against the wall and pulled up my long sleeve showing my scars ,I dig into my pant and pulled out a pen and a small knife. Have you ever had a paper cut? Did you feel it? Did you hear you skin ripe open? Did you enjoy it? Yes I’m insane I enjoy listening to my skin screaming in agony and blood flushing out like lava. I placed the pen on my wrist pushing it hard it want in deep when I pulled it back there was a small cut, and I received my knife and placed it into the small cut and push hard and a long cut ran down my wrist now. I sat there watching my blood dip down and soak the floor, I smiled and all those bad memory’s I was having disappeared.
    About five minutes I slide my sleeve down that it cover my wound and stood up and sidestepped like I was a drunk old fool! But I shock that off and walked out. When I opened the door there stood the boy he looked better then he did before it confused me. “Your pepper Liveon?” he asked “Why would I tell you my name?” I said rudely he made a fist and growled “Be nice girl” I laughed a cold laugh and said seriously “YOU DON’T SCARY ME NEIL!” he was quiet clenching and unclenching his fist, I walked passed him blood follow behind me but he said nothing about it he catches on quickly.
    A teacher found me and told me my dorm room and my classes and I didn’t say one word because if I do ill make her cry (ha ah ha) . Student saw me walking by and I felt there eyes I try so hard not to tell them the truth that their dreams are useless but I control my rage like a wolf or a werewolf. I never spoke to the boy Neil again not until the second month of the school year, I was called the madman but put the word women then man ? Anyway I havent made any friend with these.. Low minded people, it was October when this dream of my past started again and I never cried out or begged for help but these where intense and I screamed out, no one was with me in my dorm my roommate begged the headmaster to leave and he agreed no I’ m alone as always and I’m glad like a child with a new toy!, but the dreams made me tried and restless I was wondering the halls I cut myself couple minutes ago and I was light headed when I was a the garden I fell against the stone wall of the labyrinth and slow my breathing I was never this frighten before when I heard rustling noises I was ready for a fight but it seem to be Neil, I spelled a curse and he was angry already, “What’s your freaking deal!!!” he screamed I laughed I’m enjoying this too much “why would I tell you” but he cut me off “YOUR NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO WANT THOU THINGS YOUR NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO CRIED BEGGING FOR SOMEONE TO SAVE THEM FROM THEIR NIGHTMARES!!” HE SCREAM I BLINKED COUPLE TIMES THEN LAUGHED AGAIN “Who said anything about that I know I’m not the only one” I said with a wicked grin “well you the only acted like a creep!” he shouted I was silent “your point being?” he sign in frustration and slide down beside me and I crawled away , then I remembered the day they burn me I smelled the smoke and my skin peeling off of my body I screamed cover my eyed from seeing what I saw! “HEY HEY !” I FELT SOMEONE GRAB MY SHOULDERS I SCREAMED “get away get away!!” then I felt something cold and hard slip me when I open my eyes there was standing Neil his eyes filled with worry “better” I was shivering at the memory “no more” I whispered “no more” we were quiet well he was I was going into the insane place, “I’m sorry” I mumbled he look surprised and I was too “No problem and I’m sorry I throw a chair at you and choke you.” I was still shaking with fear that I hadn’t had for a long time, “Hey you don’t have to do this alone.” he said I looked at him surprised was he really saying this… he said everyone who has problems but he cant save me from my nightmare it always going to happen on that day of the year that month when I disappear and he can’t save me or protect me but I want to see how far he can take my pain away




    to be continued