• "What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneliness, and say, 'This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more; and every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned and you with it, dust of the dust!' Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or would you answer, 'Never have I heard anything more divine'?” -Friedrich Nietzsche

    This man has opened my mind today. I read this quote and pondered. I wondered why humans take such pleasure in taking pain. In my own opinion I would answer the demon by saying 'Never have I heard of anything more divine.' Because that would probably be the most amazing thing I've ever heard. Not because I want to take pain, but simply because I've never heard of anything spoken so serenely, yet so maliciously, but if I were to stand up to the demon, I wonder if I would win. Is it such a mystery that we cannot find true solace in our own lives.

    That every waking moment of pain and torture is actually a memory we will never forget as long as we live. Many realize they remember more bad moments than good moments. Some seek attention for the bad things that had happened to them, but some just take it and show their strength. No matter how calm a person might seem, they could be torn apart on the inside. No matter how original a person might seem, they could truly be a being from another world. It seems the people with the worst lives live more strangely. The ones that went through most pain get the strangest of gifts that they seem to call curses. Truth is, humans will never know true appreciation or completeness, because they have never felt it before. Ever since they were born, humans were always needy creatures and always wanting something else. We're never truly happy with our lives. Always wanting more. Even if you never ask, you know in your mind you would still want.

    A lot of people think we will never understand life. I think after things that I've seen, heard and felt, that I'm getting pretty damned close. How simple things like 'mind over matter' can change the way we live. Did you ever stop and think what life would be like if you could do anything you wanted without anything stopping you? That's the concept of mind over matter. I thought for a second and I found a comparison. (I'm sorry if this offends religious backgrounds) Did you ever see those shows on TV that you always skip of a priest healing a man that cannot walk in front of a crowd and claim it is a miracle done by the Lord? Now I'm not saying that I'm not a religious person, but this is how I see it. By using the concept of mind over matter every person in that room believes with their entire heart that the priest is going to heal this man so he can walk again. They see it in their minds, picture it, and it happens as the priest exclaims the miracle of God has healed him. Maybe it wasn't God. Maybe it was the people. Maybe it was their power of mind over matter and believing with their hearts that the man was going to be healed, and then it just happened because they believed it to be true.

    My dad always told me, "You can do anything if you put your mind to it." I never took it quite literally as I do today. So, I guess my mind doesn't work like a normal 15 year old. And the witch Mary telling me my energy seemed older than my true age, wasn't just a hoax (even though I never thought it was). I look at life so much differently than almost anyone else. My mind works in so many different ways. Sorry this was so long and descriptive. I guess I just had to spill my thoughts out. I hope you guys enjoyed reading and didn't get too bored. Please leave comments.
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