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Wish one:
I wish I was as invisible as every body made me feel. That way no one would ever have to worry about me or even pay attention to me.

Wish two:
I wish I was as broken as I feel. I've already had my heart ripped and torn out of my chest... he might as well step on it now. I almost can't breathe I'm crying so much right now. Maybe it's the hormones talking but I don't want my heart back now... now that he's torn it from me...I don't want it.

Wish three:
I wish I didn't exist. (see wish one's reasoning)

Wish four:
I wish someone was with me right now... the only men I trust are gone. Blizzard has disapeared and vanished from me... and the second one is the one ripping my heart apart right now. I've been crying for a while. ((i don't like to admit it...))
and I really need someone to talk to... but as if that's going to happen.

Wish five:
I wish everyone would stop asking me if I am ok. Plain and simple for now NO! and I don't plan to be for a while. I'm a waste of air and space... you can tell me i'm wrong all you want but i'm always going to believe it...

Wish six:
I wish i was ok again... there use to be a time ((5 years ago)) when I wasn't like this...but that came crashing down with three years of abuse from men. ok maybe more than 3 years but that's as far back as i care to think of...

Wish seven:
to end this before i kill myself...