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The spotlight has found its target and I can no longer hide.
Can't seem to come to grips with reality.
To the rules of love this no longer wants to abide.
When all that seems to hunger for air is the darker side of me.

Convincing as I am I can't fool myself.
The truth is there and it won't disappear.
The truth is I want you more than anyone else.
But there is no use when nothing seems to be clear.

Confusion runs deep in your words.
Anger runs deep within mine.
All the talking is so absurd.
Because you're not hearing me and it seems you don't have the time.

The pain is so misleading.
But I want it so much more.
Even if it's all about deceiving.
Like I promise it won't hurt like before.

Hopefully it will hurt ten times worse.
So close to the edge, just give me a shove.
Maybe I'll walk out of this in a hearse.
Only way out of a pain filled love.

Maybe if you held me closer to your heart.
Things wouldn't be derived from pain.
Maybe then I wouldn't be ripped apart.
Things would make more sense if this were sane.

My addiction to a broken heart has taken control.
I no longer know myself.
This addiction is slowly taking it's toll.
Taking more pleasure in my pain then the love itself.

I've lost myself in this addiction of mine.
You're too lost in yours to help me find my way.
I know I won't make it out this time.
But this addiction was your idea and it's sad you're okay with making me pay.