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ok so lets see its been about 3 to 4 months since i posted in this damn thing. even if no one reads this, i type it up just to keep track of things that have gone on in my life. ummm lets see, well angel girl was really a liar, she never really gave a damn about me, only the attention i got when she lied to me saying she loved me and that she cared about me (although the worst is how she had said i was the only exception to her getting married) so i was really hurt by that, but deep down yeah i was still saying fml but i was sorta just brushing it off. i guess thats what happens when your feelings towads someone change. she went from being someone i could always spot in the crowd to just another face in the crowd. the funny thing is that recently i was in a relationship with a girl i had a crush on in middle school, it was like a secret relationship, all hush- hush bcuz we thought ppl would freak if they heard we were going out. now with this chick, the little voice in my head was telling me she was a hoe, which i knew since she was practically going through guys like old shoes. but the part of me that felt alone just needed someone and she was there so i just went with it, found out she was lying to me and she liked some other dude and etc. so now once agian im in between relationships but its sorta leaning towards going out with low self esteem girl who is now at normal self esteem. lately though, i feel like im losing my way. all these ppl trying to tell me who i should be, and all this other bs. im getting sick of it cuz i just wanna be me but they want me to be like my older brother, mr. perfect, bleh xp . so now i just feel like, ya know whatever. i keep telling myself, "whats the point? everybody hates me, nobody is really there for me, etc." the horrible part is summer vaction started last week...... its sucked so far. for one the first week has just barely passed but it feels like its been a month, drivers ed is boring as ********, and being on this island is getting to be a drag. guess thats what happens when u live on galveston island and tourist show up for summer. so yeah lately my life has been one huge FML. and right now i just really need someone to be there for me, but the only person who is there is normal self esteem girl and she's off being stupid in a relationship with a guy who doesnt really give a damn about her, he just wants to get in her pants then leave her. i kno this bcuz hes making her do things he wouldnt do if he actually gave a damn about her. i swear to god (and im atheist) that if he hurts her, or makes her do something like that agian, im going to kill his a**, drag him to hell and be the judge, jury, and excutioner at his court in hell to decide his punishment, and i swear to god it will not be easy on him and i will take joy in tourturing him until he is re- dead- ified or, well u get the picture. so once agian FML thats all for now folks