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ok its been about 4 weeks since i last posted. wow its amazing what can happen in 4 weeks now tht i think about it. ok so new angel girl turned out to be bitchy hoe girl. i promised her the world, promoised id make all her dreams come true and then poof she breaks up with me 2 days before the 4 week mark. what really sickens me is 3 things, 1) she told several other ppl b4 hand 2) she lied to me when i asked if she was planning on breaking up with me after noticing she was telling other ppl something she wouldnt tell me, 3) the reason she broke up with me was bcuz she got bored so im just stuck here with tht on my mind. all i could think of was "what the ******** was i thinking?" i mean here i am finding more and more things to love about her everyday im with her and she get bored and all of a sudden all i see are reasons to hate her. so for the past 5 days ive been blasting the song by three days grace, i hate everything about you and playing along on my guitar. ive punched holes in the walls and thought of suicide planty of times. even now i all thts on my mind is "what the ******** was i thinking and wht the ******** am i thinking?" since i cant help but feel like im being this way over nothing since the days after the break up we saw eachother at school. and everyday i smirked when i saw the sadness in her eyes when she saw me with a smile on my face tht wasnt caused by her. i kno it makes me seem like an a** but hey, thts wht i call getting even.