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Yesterday, I told Chad about Ryan. Why? I unno. I didn't plan to, but he knew something was wrong and he wanted to know. I'm such a ******** sucker x__x
Saturday? We spent the day at Crocker Park. That was fun; we looked in a book shop, saw a carshow and I got some of my perfume stuffs that I loves soo damn much. Chad makes fun of me because it was "$12" ;_;
Stupid BUTTHOLE!
Sunday? Went to the beach, of course. x3
Made plans to see Texas Chainsaw Massecre... -shivers- So... much... blood..
Ooh today he hurt his arm! -Huggles- Poor baby... ;__; He ended up going to the nurse and I sat through half of lunch, alone
Sad isn't it? Myeh, don't want new friends. Don't need them.
He came in at about half through lunch and I was happy, not that his arms was still hurt or the fact that he couldn't get a ride... just to see him. @_@
When we talk, it seems a little quiet... well quieter than usual. I guess because I told him about Ryan? Heh... I'll get over Ryan... I hope.
Speaking of Ryan, I got so damn sick of crying over it... I took a metal bowl and his pictures, along with a love note I wrote and never intended to give to him. Burned it all....
There was a sense of satisfaction as I watched those flames. Yet, at the same time I feel bad. Pathetic x__x
Myeh, I remember last year. Everything he said...
"I promise I'll come see you this summer..."
"I promise that sometime in 2006 I'll come see you"
"I keep my promises...."
Well ******** that. Keep your damn promises; ACT AS IF YOU NEVER MADE MINE...
I'M JUST AN INSIGNIFICANT OBJECT YOU GOT BORED WITH, AREN'T I??
Why I kept the ashes, I'll never know. I'll probably end up saving them for a long time, though...
I'm pathetic.
Really... really pathetic.
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