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Insanity
[Dear users, I wrote this in school and it surprised me about how writing randomly has drawn out feelings that I forgot I had. Some parts were written on different days and at different times, so it may seem random and a little skippy. But I guess it's something you would want to read, should you get to know me.
I'm not insane. If you are the skeptical type, than I suggest you don't read this.]
Okay, so, Isis is cussing out Chad, I am so glad he can't hear her, Sin is humming, jumping and playing by the teacher's desk, Lucifer and Satan are both sitting on my desk. I suppose I should explain myself; I'm bored. This is a random note. Isis isn't an imaginary friend, she isn't a spirit, nor a ghost. An angel? Let's call her that...Though, she's not exactly an angel...But it's as close as I can get. I suppose that Satan, Lucifer and Sin are some of the 'Followers'. The 'Followers' are evil spirits who followed Isis, who is constantly following me....Meaning that they are always with me, also.
What is getting to me, though is that Sin, Satan and Lucifer are becoming less of the 'Followers' and more of my 'minions'. Okay, not minions. Friends. Leave it up to me to make friends with evil spirits.
Blank. Click. Ding. People talking. Head itching. Curly 'G'. Chad. Sex. Beach. Love. Marriage. Betrayal. Revenge. Sorrow. Love. Hate. Courage. Cat. Jake. Eh. a**. Bite. BUTTMUNCHER.
Isis is so pretty...I guess she is the epidome of beauty. Her complextion glows, pale & looked like porcelain. Her hair is so dark. Almost black, but not quite so...It was darker. I've called it ebony.
Her eyes blue like crystals, and they glistened and shimmered. Her skin is literally flawless, so smooth and perfect you'd think it wasn't skin at all.
I had a wierd dream; Chad told me he didn't want to see me again. Lately, my dreams have been coming true. I think, today, in a wierd way, it came true. Even though I told him about it and he promised he wouldn't....But he basicly told me to get lost.
Just a few nights ago he said he loved me. And then he and Avalon broke up.
Who am I kidding? What am I thinking? That he and I are getting back together? I keep telling myself that we are, it's clear he dosn't want to. He promistd that if he broke up with Avalon he and I would try again...He made a lot of promises, fifn't he? But...How can I remind him of that? He didn't want to break up with Avalon...
Sin...Evil as he may be, he and Isis have been helping me along. Isis says, because of something in me, I am able to befriend the evil spirits. "Though as special and different as you may be, and as inhuman as you really are, you were still brought up in the human way...And must be careful."
I trust Isis with everything that I am, but sometimes I find her advice hard to follow. Satan and Lucifer? They're as playful and mischievious as kittens; which is fitting. They DO take the form of cats, after all.
It's getting hard to practice my Telekinesis with all of them around. I can't ever tell if I'M moving something, or it's one of them messing with me.
Isis is not telling me to get rid of the followers anymore; they don't harm anything, really. Isis is protecting me, so they can't. Which is fine with me, life is more interesting with them hanging around during school, anyway.
OMG! I just noticed how UGLY [Chad] is! Which is hilarious, considdering not too long ago I was obsessed with him...OMFG! I need a life.
Okay, here's my goals; Lose weight, get stronger and KICK SOME a**.
Win the heart of a pretty girl or cute guy(preferably a girl), go off, get married, live happilly ever after!! With 3 kids named Wacko, Yacko and Dot!
Okay, maybe not. That's copywriting, isn't it? ANYWAY! Goodnight, I'm done now.
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Okay, I lied. I'm not done. My teacher just said "I'm surprised some of you turned out to be human being."
It's kinda funny, considdering I'm one of the people she isn't referring to you, being one of the better kids in class. But, I'm NOT human. Funny? Yes. Yes it is.
STFU I'M NOT HUMAN.
OMG! I should post this in my gaia journal; since this is the only time I have anything interesting to say.
I have to go to the bathroom. Grrr! Just...Hold...It....Innnnnnnn!! crying
I can wait till after class, right?
Those stupid chain pants he wears! He would have never ******** wear them if I hadn't had showed/worn mine! He calls himself "Satan", because Bobby does, he calls himself 'goth', which is what I AM! So, he poses off of me AND Bobby! POSER!
-Strikes down-!
I SO wanna do something different with my hair. I wanna dye it black with pink streaks. THAT would be fun; punky but fun. What's wrong with punk?
NOTHING. BISH.
Hmm...Maybe I'll layer it, too. This is going to be fun!
Class change, and I just took a dump.<3
I know, I know not something people want to know.
One more goal...Make a life for myself.
Because the way things are now, I have no future.
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