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And another random note from me! So much fun. ^_^
I was going to make a post yesterday, but my computer was being a b***h; it kept crashing. Probably because of viruses+spy-ware+whateverr.
Blahblahblah, all this kid ever does is yap! D:
I've been playing basketball the last two days. I had my hair tied back, but with the way my hair is cut, it still of in my face. I guess I'll have to get use to that. I'm not really much into sports, but it's a good way to get physical, y'know?
Whee! OMG! I love Daemon!<3 I was talking to him last night..Well, I was talking to him every night for the last...week? Was it week? Yeah, well he knows how I feel. Funny how he somehow resembles Chad. Gothic(Except for the fact that Chad only wanted to be goth is because I am. .__.), love of swords...kinda big. xDD Only, Daemon dosn't take things too far the way he did.
Chad likes to think he's never wrong. Daemon's not like that, well not that I've seen anyway. I like that..
I suppose I shouldn't say that Daemon won't do anything to huer me; I honestly don't know that. I mean, I've got to protect myself, right? We'll see.
Saturday I went to a soccer game with my cousins, and there I got sunburn on my head. xDD Don't ask how, I just did. ;.; It's starting to go away, though. So that's always a good thing.
My moogle is not a booby-bunny! D:
Nor does it have a purple p***y! T.T

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Clicky to see teh pretty picture, please.
Haha, I'm one to talk. My mind is pretty dirty itself...xD
Funny how I call my Journal 'Pychology of a Lost Girl', but there are things I refuse to write in here. My psychology? Totally screened. Lucky you, you don't get to read beond the edited version of my insanity! : D
I don't really know what to write about, 5 minutes to lunch & I'm getting some food. I hope they have gyros today. x3
OMG! I just noticed that the hair around my face, one side is longer than the other! xDD
lol, that's really pretty cool. x3
We had an interesting conversation about condoms today. We talked about the little bubble at the end..
I always thought that it was kinda funny. D: No, I'm no slut.
You know how it says in my profile "If I love you, I'll give you everything"?
Someone took advantage of that, and I'm so ashamed of myself. Is it so bad not to want to tell the one you love 'no'? In this case it is...Did I know I would regret it from the beginning?
I need to stop thinking about it. I can't, though. In the eyes of my family, hell...in the eyes of myself, you have something clean, a brand new parchment to give them. What do I have, though? Used material and I absolutely hate it. It may seem harsh but...that's just what it feels like. So many times I wish it were different.
"Robin, I think I love you."
"...Promise..?"
"I promise..."
"I...I love you, too..."
Always, always ask 'promise'. I don't know why. Just always do.
And then he turns around and says "Things change."
Of course things change! That's why there are promises...so that they DON'T!
If things change, then what's the point of a promise?
It wouldn't exist, the word would not be in existance. In my eyes, it isn't in existance.
Yet I still ask, 'promise?'. There seems to be a dangerous reassurance within the word that relieves me. However, such reassurances, such words are trivial. Words like violence, break the silence. They all come crashing in, into my little world.

There is a little risk in everything worthwhile. A new computer=Internet viruses. xD
Friends=Betrayal. Love=Heartache.
Everything has a price.
I love Daemon. My love is...NEVER fake.
If I love someone, I'll give them everything I can. And that is probably my fault. I know how much I can love, I know that I just want to be loved. Those qualities are what leads me to be so surreal, so dedicated and affectionate.
It's just, unreal, the feelings I can have, how deeply they run, how I can love someone and not need anyone or anything.
Another thing I've seem to have observed, should there be one person to love, I tend to shun everyone else. I feel bad about it, but it's like, I don't know...
It's almost like I don't want anyone else.

Maybe there are advantages/disadvantages to such a trait.
1)Loyalty. I would be exremely loyal. To Daemon, and Yukari too(My mother...She's the greatest person in the world. :3)
2) Dependance. Perhaps 'clingy'.
Though I could probably control that with little hobbies of mine.
*Reading *Videogames
*Writing *Computer
*Drawing *Basketball

Damn, my ******** finger hurts! crying That's what I get for biting my nails, I guess.
OJ said I was strong, today. ^.^ I'm going to continue doing curls, and then I'll get to 20lb weights instead of 15lbs.
I'm going to kick-a**! Watch out!

I've got to pass Science and Social Studies, plus do those Health Assignments.
I'm fine with my PE credits. I'm passing just fine!
Finish all the health stuff tonght, I should be okay...

Would you like to read one of my poems?
Never
Call me different,
Or crazy if you want.
I won't deny
An insane mind
Nor the creatures within that haunt.
With a twisted smile
And eyes a fiendish glow
Little will you learn, or learn none at all
All the darkest secrets I know.

Never in your life will you see
The Shadows that reveal themselves to me
Never ever will you hear
The whispered voices that you fear.
Never in 1000 years will you feel
The cold emotions I know are real
You should turn, you shouldn't care
For you will never know what I bear
You'll never know the path I walked
Just to find your way out's been blocked.
The best you could to to protect yourself;
NEVER walk with me in Hell

I'm at bowling right now for PE, currently waiting to get home and talk to Daemon. I suppose it's safe to say that I am not afraid of on-line relationships anymore, rather, relationships in general are causing my anxiety.
Though I was never really known for holding back for something quite as insignificant as fear. So why start now?

God it's hot in here, I wish I could take off my sweatshirt. A town such as Elyria, would easilly be stolen should I turn my back.
I've gotton a compliment on my hair. ^.^
Kristen said, "Your hair looks cute like that, Robin."
I'm not really sure what to say when someone tells me I'm cute. I offer a simple 'thank you', however it never really seems to be enough.
Like I should do or say something more. The situation I find quite awkward, really.
We're just finishing out second game and I'm dieing to leave.
I'm hot and sweaty and I just with to go home and listen to my music. crying
Oh yes, I forgot. I also added myself to this weeks avi contest. Concrete Angel. I cannot wait till I see my results. My original design, based on child abuse. I'm sending out a message.
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Clicky teh sexy x to vote 10!
Or at least 5 or higher...xD

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