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*WARNING: I'm a novelist, this is going to get a little dramatic: WARNING*

Everyone has that one kind of friend, that stupid friend who wants to fight about absolutly everything. The one where you hate eachother so much your friends, if only for the healthy fighting. Sometimes your ok with it all, it's alright if you both fight about who's dress is better at dances and who can eat more Ramen. But today we spoke on the phone about our boyfriends (big surprise, huh?) And she was bragging, and she has a right to. She's with a guy who's nice enough, that mysterious King of the Dark Elves type. And I have a right to brag about my guy to, he's the hunky jock, but he's the rare one that loves to read and is in touch with his vampire side but a little shy when it comes to kissing in public. My nerves were already kinda fried from a long day of school, so when I answered the phone it didn't really help that it was her ready to bicker and snipe. I braced myself, but she brought the "Well, my guy's hotter than yours" oh, I know, she's so mature *rolls eyes* but I played along. And then she asked this question, brace yourself "What would your guy do if you got pregnant?" Oh joy, oh rapture, the dreaded question of girls and guys everywhere. I answered simply "Easy, I'm not going to sleep with him no matter what" Then she said "Well, just if you did" And I started off, because I'm relativly new at the girlfriend thing, and said "Well, I don't know if he'd stay or not..." because i didn't! We'd never talked about it, I didn't know! She started freakin laughing and I knew what was coming next. "Oh, well my guy said he'd stay and blah and blah and yack and yack and dribble and blah!!!" But I hung up on her, so I can't really tell you what happened. I'm going to kill her (not really, love the stupid git to death and back) tomorrow at school. What me and my guy have is something nice and sweet and relatively innocent (yeah yeah "All girls say it" but I told him I'd never sleep with him no matter what and he stayed with me, so points for me!!) And what she has with her guy is so...it's a facade, a sad imitation of reality in a polluted mind of chaos. They'll be over in a week or two, it's nothing that will last. Now, I'm not a dreamer...that's a lie, I am, but I try to be a realist when I don't put my mind in my book. I try to think of things like realist, going over every possibility and detail. I don't think that me and my guy will last, he'll be a junior next year and I won't even be a blip on his radar. He's moving anyways next year, and that pissed me off some but now we're ok. But how long until he wants something more convient and just stops contact all together? How long until I'm just a nusiance and he can't take being attached to someone he never see? He'll meet a better looking girl and I'll just be some girl who's name he have to stare up at the sky and sigh to remember. I want nothing more than for him to be happy, so it's ok. I'm not going to be one of those girls who start crying and throwing crap, because I 'love' him in some twisted girly, teenage-y.

Oh, and I hate the word love more than I hate cheese.

Forever surronded by angels,
Emkacosa