3:10 PM Well, I'm here at home, and I think it's about time to update my journal again. At the very least it'll let people know I haven't died lol
A lot has been happening in my life. School is out, but my stress still abounds as I think about my future and where I'll be. I haven't been drawing at all since I've been off, which is disappointing. Actually, I take that back - I HAVE drawn a few things, but really I can't seem to find the spark.
This sucks as an artist, because I've essentially got painter's block or whatever you wanna call it - I'm not a writer, yet, so I can't call it writer's block...so it's whatever block. This also sucks because I have a LOT of ideas swirling around in my head! A LOT! I want to draw these magnificent images, and I have everything there, but then when I try to focus on one of the characters the image begins to fade and blur. I just don't want to draw if I can't get the character right, and since I'm not doing that I'm also not helping keep my skills up to date so it's kindof a double edged sword.
My life has been very busy. Since I've been out of school, my parents have piled everything on me that they've kept off while I was attending classes. A lot of moving things here and there, taking care of my mother with her broken leg, cooking from time to time a few dishes, cleaning, trying to sell some things (still need to do that). *sighs* It's really bogged me down and made me stop thinking about anything artsy.
Then there comes another thing. A small, white thing. As a pre-graduation present, my parents finally gave me something I've always wanted: a puppy. Her name is Haku, which is Japanese for White, Pure and/or Snow, and she is a Bichon Frise. I love her to death, though I get quite jealous when she pays other people attention because I want to be the thing she loves the most and don't want others to influence her. Ahhh... she is quite cute, but she is growing so fast. She is a huge biter, and trouble maker, which causes further stress. But she is a unique character with a lot of oddities about her that help her fit in perfectly with our odd family.
Ever since my grandmother passed away, things have changed - especially my dad... I don't know the man anymore. He lost his mother, and yet I feel like we lost him that day too. He lies a lot more now, he doesn't want to do anything unless it's work related (aka moving some s**t to somewhere else, because we don't have enough s**t), and he just doesn't seem to have any drive now. He has become overly lazy and really let himself go, he explodes in a rage quite easily these days, and really it's rubbed off on me to where I hate being around him.
He won't do anything to better himself, despite what he has sworn to me (not promised - SWORN), and quite frankly this could be why I don't want to do anything much anymore... We even got a Wii Fit, which I love, but he won't touch the damn thing despite promising here and there to better himself and do it. I'm the only one who has a freakin record on the thing, though my mother has tried a few times so she has a little - but the woman has a damn broken leg so I can't blame her for it! I don't know... I'm just very pessimistic these days; though most people won't see it online since I can think online before I speak and I can spend time away from the person to clear my head if there is trouble.
Anyways...what else?... Hmmm...
Ah, I guess I could end this journal entry with something I wanted to share. There is a future Visual Novel online that will one day have Hentai content in it. It's like Fate Stay Night, where you'll follow a certain path here and there, building a relationship with a girl and blah blah blah. If you've read my past journal entries, you'll know how much I loved Fate Stay Night. Truly is one of the best stories ever written, or should I say multiple stories since each path was completely different. The game was made by frequenters of 4chan; if you're an internet junky you probably have heard of the place.
The game is titled Katawa Shoujo. There is only Act 1 released so far, and that is only 15% - 20% of the game, so there will at least be 4 more Acts. Let me clear some things up, though it all originated from 4chan, the developers have distanced themselves quite far from the place. The original design was for the game to revolve around dating girls with disabilities and pretty much doing naughty things to them and taking full advantage of them. The devs have removed that - and have created a very tasteful story.
The characters are not taken advantage of, they are treated like human beings. Yes, they are disabled, the school is for disabled students. However, the girls have their own personalities, their own problems, their own lives. Oh I don't know how to quite say all this - damnit all - but it's nothing like anything you'd find on 4chan and the whole thing is really well done.
The characters are believable, especially the girl whom I personally love (Rin Tezuka), the story is intriguing, the music is great... I'm listening to several tracks right now while my little Haku is sleeping on the bed... Urgh... Look, the graphics are nice, the story is well written, the choices are good, there is no taking advantage of any girl's disability. These guys are actually good! They've done a great piece!
Shizune is on the student council, and is deaf so she signs to communicate, and thankfully she is best friends with Misha who translates anything and everything she, Shizune, or anyone else says to Shizune so communication stays. She is quite competitive and serious, as expected of the class rep.
Misha's disability isn't revealed yet, but the girl loves to laugh, talk extremely loudly no matter where she is, and is easily excitable. Sadly, the devs say Misha will not be dateable, so she doesn't have a path (lame).
Hanako, a poor girl who had half her body burned in an accident a long time ago, is now very anti-social to the point she runs/avoids from just about anyone and has her whole body shake if someone even pays her attention. She covers the burnt part of her face with her hair, her hand, or anything she has available because she is so uneasy about it. She speaks little and only has one friend, Lilly, whom she is quite attached to and feels safe around.
Lilly is a blind girl, and is another class's class rep. She has a good upbringing, and tends to look out for those close to her like a mother, which probably helps with Hanako. She is calm, and softspoken, and likes simple things like sipping tea in a quiet room. She walks around with a retractable cane, and gets by obstacles using her fingers to touch and examine, such as following a wall or measuring how much tea has been poured into a cup.
Emi is a runner, a small girl who has prosthetic legs from the knees down. She exercises a lot, by running, and has a go-get-em attitude. She is very cheery, and very caring to those she meets. Her philosophy is that anything is possible if you keep trying at it, and that you'll improve if you keep working on it. She is roommates with Rin.
Rin is a girl who thinks a lot. Her words are deep, and confusing, and questionable. Her whole personality, in fact, is questionable because you never know what she'll say next. She doesn't seem to quite care what effect the things she says can have, and seems to be in her own world at times. She is odd, and perhaps this is why she is a painter. However, Rin does not have any arms due to a birth defect (actually she has upper arms, but they end before the elbows), so she instead paints with her feet.
As for the main character, Hisao, he used to belong to a normal school but was transferred to this one. It happened due to him being diagnosed with Arrhythmia, or a weakened heart.
Oh jeez, here - here is the link to the game. http://katawa-shoujo.com/
Please, I beg you, try the game out and see for yourselves how great it is. I love the characters, each one is just so unique. I want to talk about this game to everyone, but I just don't know how to describe it right now - which freaking sucks. You have to try it out for yourself; it's free and it's in English, because even though it's anime it's being made by Europeans and Australians. The best 'endings' currently are Shizune's and Rin's, in my opinion. Try and unlock everything (even the bad end by not going for ANY girl and typically distancing yourself from anyone...like a jerk)
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