• Go ahead and blame yourself,
    you always do anyway,
    picking away at your self-esteem,
    actually making me feel worse,
    for no good reason.

    Every time you were here,
    my heart burst out my chest,
    and I offered myself to you.

    When you were here,
    my smile grew wide,
    when you were gone,
    I'd drown in self pity.

    Sometimes I wouldn't hear from you for weeks,
    although,
    without you,
    I could smile.

    Then you'd return,
    I completely forgot about the fun I had,
    when you weren't
    There.

    You left again and again,
    always returning,
    for a short while.

    "stay."
    I'd ask.
    "I need you."
    I'd plead.

    It's true,
    I needed you,
    cause when you were gone,
    I cried I obsessed.

    After a few days I'd forget your lovely smile,
    You matching brown hair and eyes,
    and your "sexy" braces.

    I admit it,
    I love you even now,
    I swear on my grave,
    that I will meet you some day.

    Til then,
    think fondly of me,
    the fun we had,
    I do always.

    I still love you,
    I still miss you,
    But it's better this way.

    And no matter how many times I cuss out your name,
    well, who am I kidding?
    I'd never say it out loud,
    No, I won't say I'm still in love with you,
    Kev.


    -Max