• i'll never
    be able to explain what its like,


    loving you.


    memorizing the shape of your face

    your voice on the phone
    and
    that little patch on your collarbone
    where someone hurt you
    and the scars still show
    on the most
    breakable
    skin

    that place that made me promise
    "i'll never let you hurt again"

    ...but you know me better than that.




    maybe you'll know
    (eventually)
    how much you're loved

    by me



    and then i told you
    the truth
    when i fell asleep

    with my head on your shoulder
    (it meant the world to me)
    and whispered in your ear

    but you didn't hear.
    or so it seemed
    so i closed my eyes

    and contented myself
    by listening
    for your heartbeat