• "You are perfect, nothing is wrong with your life."
    I must be perfect.
    Perfect at hiding everything.
    Do you know loneliness?
    Not like me.
    I have family, I have friends.
    Why am I so lonely?
    You will never know how I feel.
    You will never understand.
    My life is simple yet complex.
    I'm in so much pain.
    I feel numb.
    I'm not good enough for anyone.

    We
    All
    Want
    To
    be
    L.O.V.E.D

    I'm so lonely.
    [Don't pity me]
    don’t pity.
    Learn to understand me.
    [Understand me.]
    He never loved me.
    [He'll never love me.]
    Why isn't it easy for me to let go?
    [Why can't I let go?]
    Why can't I get rid of this ridiculous obsession?
    I don't love you, just the idea of you.

    I was so young
    I was so naive
    how could he touch me?
    How could he?
    You think you can use me,
    go ahead you aren't the first
    [you aren't the first]
    I'm not a doll,
    I'm not a toy,
    I'm not worthless..
    Or am I?

    I never felt beautiful
    I never felt good enough
    you made me believe that you loved me
    those sweet serene words
    WERE ALL LIES!
    everything is a lie!
    You aren't the first
    to touch a soft spot in my heart,
    And break me,
    break me apart.
    I need to be stronger.
    But how?

    When I look at you I’m speechless.
    I have a thousand words to say but can't.
    I thought I could speak my mind?
    But not when it comes to you.
    I bite my lips when I look into your eyes,
    you are so amazing.
    When I see you with her
    my lip starts bleeding.
    I’m biting so hard to take away the pain.
    Physical is NOTHING compared to mental pain
    remember that -
    Baby I’m going insane
    I’ve already hit the floor
    I’m about to bounce back and hit it harder
    you hurt me once and I KNOW you'll do it
    again and again and again!

    This world is so f**ked up,
    So distorted and ruined!
    Can anybody hear the children’s cries?
    Of their mommy and daddies that died
    to greed, to rape, to poverty
    [Poor baby, please don't cry, your mommy just died]


    Listen
    You are forgetting to listen.
    [[Yes, I'm talking to god.]]
    Are you confused?
    Let's break this down
    for you to understand

    I hate...
    this world
    I hate...
    MY LIFE!
    I’m giving up
    this s**t is all screwed up!

    These words are raw and bland
    I’m weak but strong enough to speak my mind.
    I’m giving up.

    I want to be normal
    [I want to stop hurting]
    stop the blood!
    [Stop the blood!]
    Why do they pretend to hurt?
    [why do they pretend]
    You know nothing!
    This isn't funny!
    I’m so f**ked up,
    so different,
    I'm not perfect,
    I wish I was perfect,
    you don't understand
    [you’ll never understand]

    You don't want to be like me.
    To breathe and taste the s**t
    That I've seen.
    I am second best,
    and considered a "whore."
    I am imperfect
    and nothing more.