• torn together and coming apart
    like a disfunctional marrionette
    an old toy am I.
    like a worn out tire no use am I.
    they lie, I die inside, I try to see the light
    but I am broken.
    like a barbie doll so worn and used forgotten I lay
    while the teddy's go out to play.
    speachless as I watch them leave me behind.
    In my mind
    I replay every word trying to figure out where I went wrong.
    no one wants me, no one needs me.
    I am just the object of every pain... to my mother, my father my family and all
    my maddy how can you love me at all?
    I sometimes see no use in life.. laying awake to afraid
    to sleep and Have a nightmare full of plague.
    you lie... I know... I cant figure out where to go...
    tears pattering inside as I wipe and try to hide...
    behind the lie of "I'm fine"
    I love you so my dear...
    cant you hear?
    I suppose not... my mouth is stitched
    and my hands are tied, behind the lie of
    "I'm fine"
    so confused so distraught so unused and pukeishly caught
    between what I want and need and what I've got...
    its to good to be true... wheres the catch?
    I hurt you once... you hurt me back... who's turn is it to hurt who?
    who's turn is it to laugh?
    I dont want it to be this way... but thats how it is
    since this is life... and life just is.