• It's happened 6 times before and I'm letting it happen again Then I have to hear everyone tell me how I'm failing at life and I'm just another let down They say I'll be better what they mean is I can't be any worse They look at me with drunken eyes and let me know what they really feel come out and break my heart I just want to know why I do this to myself though I know what's a head I don't change paths I just keep moving foward to a deep depression that's waiting when I met the sudden rellization that this is my life I want to get away so I escape in my head forget these real problems for a fake future and hope it's not like theirs i know how i keep moving forward by doing nothing all i do is ask this question with no anwser why do i keep doing this to myself though i know what's a head i don't change direction i just keep moving forward by doing the same old thing i don't want my life to be a reflection on what not to do but all i can do is accespet the fact that i ******** up and listen to them all tell me when they get drunk enough i know what's ahead but i don't change paths i just keep moving forward to a deep depression that's waiting when i met the relization that this is my life.