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First Kiss
At the park, late night. The first chance we get alone
Third party gone away, in search of an item.
Swings still swaying from us getting off.
Sitting by a tree, I wait for a reaction
Standing, turn his head, I see it.
The gleam in his eyes as they fill with lust and what was love then.
They glitter as he and I know what is to happen.
Embracing in a gentle hug, I feel warm and safe.
Shaking, I hold on so tightly as he returns the pressure.
Friends or not, the desire for his lips against mine is unbearable.
I want his face right next to mine, looking back at me with love.
Lately my feelings have been hard to control.
Leaning away, not letting go, I stare ahead.
We tense up together as he leans in
I do the same and suddenly, I’m lost in his unreal passion.
Thoughts fill my head as this action continues.
Deep and meaningful already, the kiss was forbidden and a secret.
Making it not only more fun, more exciting, but also more vicious and true.
But this is all to end when I can’t feel my heart anymore,
Possibly exploding from the thrill and the yearning for this
The beast in my belly is tamed, calm and quiet.
At least for now, for I’ll never know when I’ll want to feed again.
Only one thing can cure this hunger, and that is his kiss.
But how long will this remain? How long will I torture myself and him?
Killing us both with reckless actions and hard words.
Will I ever get over my nostalgia?
Will he ever remember the love?
The times we shared after getting scared we were caught?
Can I pray that one day, he will come back to me with his full love?
No. I can’t so I won’t because I know now...
Who this boy really is...
And I can’t love someone, who doesn’t know what love is...