I guess he wanted me to write him something loving
lol
lol
Well I dont mind
After all he is my everything
After all he is my everything
Oh my, lol, goodness
How is it that I love him so much?
And, lol you know for some reason I feel like the writers in the anime and there is a deadline and I see them type type type type.
lol well at least I'm enjoying it, unlike Shigure. XD
Hm, sigh, goodness though, my question why do I love him so much?
Hm...lol well he is quite sexy ;D
He is very strong
Lol yes very very strong, I say the strongest out of all the men out there...with an exception for a few.
But he is among the strongest in my book, lol no s crew it XD the strongest, cause in my book its all him.
He's gentle, and kind, very smart, which I do like about him...lol though at times I feel completely out of his range XD .
Did, I mention sexy?
XD lol He's true to his word, and that is something that's very special about him.
There aren't a lot of guys out there who are like him, not even close to him, he's special.
A truly special guy, I should have realized it, I did, but you know I ruined things, and after a while I became selfish and I let lots of things complicate things. And, in the end I ruined our relationship.
There isn't a way I can take back everything I said, and make it never happened.
Though I can rebuild things. It's tough work, very hard and heart braking, stressing work. But, I did this, and if I expect to get back the guy I want, I have to fix and make things better. Fix what I have done wrong.
He is too wonderful of a guy to throw away.
And, I don't want to lose him.
I must rebuild value, trust, love, promises.
Fix all the betrayal and lies I have done.
I let others get in the way of him, if I truly loved him and valued his love, would I be thinking of others. Or saying anything like it?
No, though I never did anything.
Thoughts and some actions do horrible things to the other.
Its like if he talked about other girls and how they look and he liked them, or he talked to them.
I certainly wont allow that, and it would hurt me.
I didn't think about how it was for him when I would say and do things.
I want to prove to him I truly value him.
I might have not showed it and it seemed I didn't and like he said, brought his value down.
But, now, I want to fix that.
To show him I will be all his, and only his.
I don't belong to anyone else, neither does one have the right of either him or I to touch me inappropriately, to say things to me, to look at me a certain way, that he won't like. And, would look bad upon myself.
I am no slut.
And, I belong to someone.
I love him and only him.
I give my soul and heart to him.
My body, My love.
I trust in him and love him to give myself to him completely.
It does not matter now about insecurity or nervousness or anything, I truly love him and trust him, I am comfortable enough, that I can show him everything, as he can give me his whole body, all his soul and heart.
I want and will show him my everything.
Give him all my love and body.
My soul, My life.
How can someone be married and not know how their wife looks like down there?
Silly right..
