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I dont know what i should do anymore would saying no be too controling or would saying yes say i dont care enough i want her to be happy no matter what it does to me ill twist myself till shes happy again i wrecked her when she didnt do anything to me this is the least i can do to make it up to her i pray he doesnt do anything again i dont like him she asked me to go with her idk if i even can with out killing the kid i want to but idk if i should but i also dont know how much more i can take i can feel me falling apart i cant feel anything ik im sad but my body wont show is it because im growing use to this or is it because my wells run dry i feel like walking down the street in this rain