Life seems to have taken pity upon me. It has given me a little break, then bombarged me with nervousness, worry, sadness, and embarrassment. I just learned this week that in a couple weeks, one of my best guy friends is moving away. It breaks my heart to see him leave, because he was one of the few who could make me smile when I really wanted to cry. Every chance I've had so far, I've hugged him.
Last night we had a play rehearsal, full dress. I was made to wear a dress that showed off curves that I didn't know that I had. Angel commented upon my curves and said that I looked lovely. He's been helping me through my trying times with my loved ones. I took the compliment and continuously asked him if I looked alright when I thought something had been changed or messed up. Tonight was the night that we had to put on the play.
Things went fairly well, and I looked nice. People told me that I looked wonderful with my hair done up and with the makeup. Angel was hovering around me all night back stage. I tried to keep a little distance because I didn't know why he was acting like this. When I got off stage after my first scene, I was shaking and had a hard time standing. Angel had a hold on my shoulders so that I could keep standing, and try to stop my shaking. I was grateful to him and hugged him multiple times that night. My boyfriend was at the play and every second he could have, he stuck near me.
After the play was over, I decided to go and change. I didn't want to go to the bathroom to change, so I changed in the closet. Angel knew I was in there and told my mum so that she would stop looking for me. I was nearly about done changing when he walked right in on me. I was covered, thank the gods, but it was highly embarrassing! He was too busy ranting about someone jacking his hair spray to hear my cries to have him stop. When he saw me his face flushed and he walked out quickly saying, why didn't I say something. We shrugged it off and went on with the night. I still slightly tease him to knock before he enters next time...
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Words of Silence
The words that are silent during the day, shall be spoken and heard through the night.
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all is lost to my ears
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